Bird Girl

Another Song About a Previous Relationship
I wrote this about my first relationship in college. It’s about both being in a romantic relationship, as well as a strong, independent women. My ex was mentally strong and it is a quality that I admired about her. She wore bright red lipstick a lot and she was actually really cool. That’s why I say “an unifinished nest” because there is probably some iteration of reality, in which we did stay together. I felt a good connection with her and we had a positive relationship together.
She Liked France a Lot
She stopped showering for a while, just because it was something that she told me was typical of French culture. She said that they didn’t shower and they wore a lot of cologne. We were together for about half a year, but we broke up while we spent a summer apart. She went to France and I went to Brazil for a brief study abroad. We didn’t see each other after the month ended either, as we had to go home before the commencement of other classes. A few months apart is difficult for any relationship. Sometimes I wonder how I would have acted if I was more mature in that situation.
How That Relationship Ended
While I was in Brazil, I went to a bar called Al Capone’s with a bunch of friends. I met an attractive woman in a red corset and we really hit it off. I danced with her and then we made out for a while. We didn’t hook up or anything, but she left her business card in my pocket.
I didn’t feel bad about it and that’s how I knew I needed to end my relationship. I do not condone cheating and I am not about that life. When I didn’t feel bad about violating my relationship (in my opinion), I cut things off. It was out of consideration for my partner’s feelings, because I didn’t want to lead her on. I did miss her and we had a lot of good times together, but it just wasn’t the right relationship for me. Maybe it was just the timing and of course, being in different countries is a huge burden on any couple. I don’t think that I was entirely emotionally ready for a relationship at that point in time. I don’t regret it and I actually place a lot of value in her as a person.
Unfortunately, We Weren’t Able to Stay Friends
We tried to stay friends for a while, but we just weren’t ever able to communicate the same way again. At the end of college, we hung out a little bit with mutuals and we were able to be cool with each other. After college, we were able to catch up a little bit online but that’s where things left off. I’m glad that she was so positive and strong throughout that entire ordeal and I wish I could have been a better person for her. In a way, this song is me trying to immortalize what we used to have. Most relationships that start freshmen year of college are doomed to fail anyway.
What About the Red Corset Girl?
Umm, she put her business card in my pocket when she left. She was a wedding planner in Brazil and I didn’t call her while I was still there. Leaving a relationship was enough burden for me at that point and I wasn’t ready for another one. I used to wish that I had gotten to know her, but I was only in Brazil for one month so there wasn’t much hope. I thought about friending her on Facebook after returning to The U.S., but by then it didn’t seem worth it anymore. It would be cool, if we have a chance encounter some day but it’s highly unlikely.
Musical Composition of Bird Girl
I wrote this song on guitar, before I created the drum beat. This is one of the songs I made with ProTools, when I still had access to it on the Northeastern University library computers. I only use Ableton now, because ProTools is ridiculously expensive. I think that this song came together rather nicely and had a good cohesiveness to it. Lyrically, it has powerful metaphors that illustrate a really interesting scenario. The metaphors don’t exactly mirror the way our relationship was, but they have a raunchy feeling to them that captures the sensual energy of our relationship.
Bird Girl lyrics by Sage Suede
Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl
Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1
Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again
it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been
all the happiest dreams
it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece
like an unfinished nest
on a motel out west
not free to park
but with a fully stocked mini bar
Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl
Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1
Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again
it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been
all close contact
I’ll like your ear
you’ll text back
it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece
it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been
spread your wings and fly high
with apathy that never dies
it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece
young love electrified
Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl
Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1
Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again
And now I’m left with nothing
but all this would be loving
just took a red corset
another’s lips and now I’m
lost again
Yes, I lick ears and that is usually a turn on for musicians lol. I didn’t train my cat to do that though.