Bird Girl

Another Song About a Previous Relationship

I wrote this about my first relationship in college. It’s about both being in a romantic relationship, as well as a strong, independent women. My ex was mentally strong and it is a quality that I admired about her. She wore bright red lipstick a lot and she was actually really cool. That’s why I say “an unifinished nest” because there is probably some iteration of reality, in which we did stay together. I felt a good connection with her and we had a positive relationship together.

She Liked France a Lot

She stopped showering for a while, just because it was something that she told me was typical of French culture. She said that they didn’t shower and they wore a lot of cologne. We were together for about half a year, but we broke up while we spent a summer apart. She went to France and I went to Brazil for a brief study abroad. We didn’t see each other after the month ended either, as we had to go home before the commencement of other classes. A few months apart is difficult for any relationship. Sometimes I wonder how I would have acted if I was more mature in that situation.

How That Relationship Ended

While I was in Brazil, I went to a bar called Al Capone’s with a bunch of friends. I met an attractive woman in a red corset and we really hit it off. I danced with her and then we made out for a while. We didn’t hook up or anything, but she left her business card in my pocket.

I didn’t feel bad about it and that’s how I knew I needed to end my relationship. I do not condone cheating and I am not about that life. When I didn’t feel bad about violating my relationship (in my opinion), I cut things off. It was out of consideration for my partner’s feelings, because I didn’t want to lead her on. I did miss her and we had a lot of good times together, but it just wasn’t the right relationship for me. Maybe it was just the timing and of course, being in different countries is a huge burden on any couple. I don’t think that I was entirely emotionally ready for a relationship at that point in time. I don’t regret it and I actually place a lot of value in her as a person.

Unfortunately, We Weren’t Able to Stay Friends

We tried to stay friends for a while, but we just weren’t ever able to communicate the same way again. At the end of college, we hung out a little bit with mutuals and we were able to be cool with each other. After college, we were able to catch up a little bit online but that’s where things left off. I’m glad that she was so positive and strong throughout that entire ordeal and I wish I could have been a better person for her. In a way, this song is me trying to immortalize what we used to have. Most relationships that start freshmen year of college are doomed to fail anyway.

What About the Red Corset Girl?

Umm, she put her business card in my pocket when she left. She was a wedding planner in Brazil and I didn’t call her while I was still there. Leaving a relationship was enough burden for me at that point and I wasn’t ready for another one. I used to wish that I had gotten to know her, but I was only in Brazil for one month so there wasn’t much hope. I thought about friending her on Facebook after returning to The U.S., but by then it didn’t seem worth it anymore. It would be cool, if we have a chance encounter some day but it’s highly unlikely.

Musical Composition of Bird Girl

I wrote this song on guitar, before I created the drum beat. This is one of the songs I made with ProTools, when I still had access to it on the Northeastern University library computers. I only use Ableton now, because ProTools is ridiculously expensive. I think that this song came together rather nicely and had a good cohesiveness to it. Lyrically, it has powerful metaphors that illustrate a really interesting scenario. The metaphors don’t exactly mirror the way our relationship was, but they have a raunchy feeling to them that captures the sensual energy of our relationship.

Bird Girl lyrics by Sage Suede


Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all the happiest dreams

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

like an unfinished nest
on a motel out west
not free to park
but with a fully stocked mini bar

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all close contact
I’ll like your ear
you’ll text back

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

spread your wings and fly high
with apathy that never dies

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

young love electrified

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

And now I’m left with nothing
but all this would be loving
just took a red corset
another’s lips and now I’m
lost again

Yes, I lick ears and that is usually a turn on for musicians lol. I didn’t train my cat to do that though.

How Can I

How Can I call you my lover Sage Suede

How Can I is A Song About Millennial Dating

Nowadays, most people meet through dating apps and it is great to meet someone worthwhile, but oftentimes they are already talking to other people before they even meet you. So it’s optimistic to even expect dating to go anywhere when you meet someone from an app.

Why is it Optimistic?

Unfortunately, dating apps make everyone a commodity. No matter how attractive you are, it just takes a few more swipes to meet someone else.

Tip: Try To Ask Your Date About Their Dating Life

If you talk with someone and they are an honest person, they should tell you where you stand. They should also give you an idea of whether or not they are seeing multiple people, or have already met someone before you. It can feel deceptive when someone is dating others, but keep in mind that you may not be at the exclusive phase yet. They could also be polyamorous and if that’s the case, then you need to be okay with it for your relationship to work. I have had people break up with me because I’m not polyamorous and that doesn’t offend me. They just wanted something that I couldn’t give them. This song isn’t really that relevant to polyamory, unless you are speaking in terms of someone that isn’t ready to date you at all.

Modern Dating Sometimes Has a Longer Dating Phase

I have met couples that were married after one or two weeks of dating. They are a bit older than me, so I presume that it is a generational difference, however that can also be the case when you meet someone that is just right for you. However, with all of these apps and fewer societal obligations to get married, many people of younger generations are waiting longer to get married. As a result, the dating phase can last much longer than expected.

You won’t get to be exclusive with people as quickly as in the past. It’s also not nearly as easy, when they can search for others on the internet and that is the premise of this song.

How can you even call someone a lover, if they are unwilling to settle down with you?

That question is much longer than How Can I, which also evokes a lack of the ability to put this meaning into words.

It’s Hard to Find Consistency in Your Teens and Early Twenties

However, as many people get older, there is more desire to settle down. It’s nothing to get worked up about, because it won’t get you anywhere. Most people don’t know what they want at a young age and they can’t even identify what they need in a partner. Just be clear with your partner when you would like to be exclusive and don’t try to change who they are.

dating advice sage suede

Sometimes, you can get someone to be exclusive with you rather quickly, but usually it takes at least a few dates and several weeks. Since I’m talking about this concept, I would also like to mention that you don’t want to tell someone you love them too early on, because it makes you seem desperate. Sometimes this can be have poor consequences, early in a relationship.

You really can’t put a time frame on when it’s okay to say “I love you,” but if I ventured a wild guess I would say 3 months. You really need to read your partner’s body language though and if you feel that close to them, they may be in a similar place.

Musical Composition of How Can I

This song is written with an alternative rock feeling to it. It is most similar in style to Cleopatra on DIAMONDBACK Demo. It also features a drum machine and electric guitar. I would like to get a higher quality guitar pedal in the future, so the distortion is a little more clear. This was another step in the right direction for me, as the songwriting process taught me more about rock vocals and what I want to sound like.

How Can I lyrics by Sage Suede


I was looking at the moon
la lune
and she says be there soon
shut in like a coccoon
butterfly
too dark to go and fly
rubberneck dirt road
killing my flow
not sure
how to cope
when it’s just picking up a fight
a girl just like any other

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

I was walking down the street
you’d speak
beautiful words muttered
under your breath
confess to me
through my window shutters
seen so many details of so many females
like to hear her tale
read her like an email
must be like a single light
a spark that struck me just right

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

farewell
but you cast your spell
I wanted to see it through
you rang the bell
and my pride fell
I’ll come crawling
back to you
warm fuzzy full it’s like
orange fills my soul
this light
could keep me there
could make me stare
into your eyes
and kiss you tonight

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

Thanks for visiting my site! Photos for this post are by Adam Perri and  you can find more on my modeling portfolio.
I am now located in Austin, TX and available for modeling opportunities.

Demons Want Cash Flow

An Understatement: I Was Not Happy When I Wrote This

There are a lot of 7s in today’s date so what better time to talk about this song. If you read the lyrics or listen to this song at all, then you would know that it has nothing to do with demonology, or the study of demons. If anything, it’s about demons within others trying to oppress your spirit and possibly, even intending to physically destroy you.

Around the time I wrote this song, I met some people that tried to ruin my life. In a nutshell, they tried to destroy everything about me. I don’t plan to perform this song, but I included it on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so that people would know that I was coming from a breaking point. I had to overcome these demonic people and luckily, I won, or I would essentially be dead right now.

I Still Feel Shy & Depressed

I struggled with a lot of depression and anxiety during the past few years. I’m still shy, so it’s taken a lot of practice for me to branch out and become a performer. I am only a bit extroverted to begin with and I’m skilled at marketing and social media, but I don’t crave attention in social settings.

I used to be so shy that I would choke anytime I auditioned for a theatrical role, or did a clarinet competition. I’ve been doing different kinds of performances throughout my life that have led me to be more confident and outgoing, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have struggled with depression. Most of my poetry from my younger years is too sad to share, as were most of my songs when I started sharing music online. You’ll definitely see that in the first few posts on this site. You can also find some of this poetry on SageSuede.Tumblr.com.

Overcoming Difficulties Makes You Stronger

I felt like it was important to share this song on DIAMONDBACK demo, because it shows a little more about negative experiences that helped to shape me into the person I am today. I don’t want to align myself with these feelings, which is why I don’t plan to perform this song (unless people really like it, it has a few likes on soundcloud). These feelings are still a part of who I am, but I actively choose to be happy because it’s better for me. I am trying my best to keep my aura clear and to focus on positive materialization.

Others Will Try to Drag You Down

I want my fans to hear this song, because I have encountered a lot of people in my life that make the self-centered assumption that I am overly-confident, or that I “need to be more grounded in reality.” Some of them will attack us just for acting happy, because they think that our happiness is a sign that we don’t feel sad. That couldn’t be further from the truth. I act happy for the people around me, not for myself. I project happiness outward, so that I will receive it in return. It has nothing to do with how I feel.

Some People Try to Tell Me That I’m “Not Even a Musician, or a Model”

They want to discourage me and tell me that my pursuits in music are futile, by comparing me to the most popular musicians and models in all of human history… That scale is absurd and it’s sad how some people act when they get the internet in front of them. I am a musician and a model, because I have the proof online. It’s what I do, not what they say and I am mostly talking about this now for the benefit of y’all – the readers. Don’t take it to heart if people say that you aren’t successful based on some absurd large scale person that is one of the most famous people of all time. That’s comical, if anything and it doesn’t make any sense.

About The Song Demons Want Cash Flow

This song is not about businessman. I am technically a businessman by profession, so I obviously don’t want to demonize everyone with a cash flow statement lol. I am still an artist in my free time and I am working towards making this my only job.

One Vocal, Acoustic Take

I recorded this song in one take and I didn’t do much editing at all, except for EQ. It is more conceptual, than professionally made and is about my feelings at the time. It is neither reflective of my overall abilities to make audio edits, nor my vocal talent; I didn’t use any comping, which is the industry standard nowadays. Comping is when you take the best vocal clips from various takes and put it together to make the highest possible quality vocal track. I did almost no comping at all on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so my takes are better than people would assume.

This Song Features Many Lyrics About My Inner Struggles

You could call them personal demons as well, but many of these inner struggles were forced upon me by others. I have grown to overcome them, in ways that I never expected and I am thankful to have made it through this very difficult period in my life.

There is a lyric about “my dying drones.” It is in terms of the fact that we are always getting closer to death and most all entertainment industries are youth-centric; that means that it is harder and harder to simply be a part of music or modeling as I age, even though these are things I love to do. I’m not going to give up, just because mediocre young artists will get more attention, simply based on their ability to pull young kids into their fan-base. I’ve been through too much to let others affect the outcome of my life and I am doing this all independently, so it’s up to me to make it happen. None of this would exist right now if I hadn’t worked for it throughout my entire life and it will continue growing, because I won’t give up.

If You Work Hard, You Will Succeed.

No one can tell you that you aren’t capable of something, when you are doing it. Believe in the things that you work hard at, because they are things that you have already achieved. People can try to talk you down, but words can only have so much influence. If you keep working, you will get to where you are going and there’s no reason to ever feel bad because there are people that are more famous than you. It’s sad that artists are constantly being pitted against each other like it’s some kind of Roman circus.

Why is Sage Suede Not More Famous?

I have a lot of student debt. I’m not a trust fund baby that can just buy everything they want. I had to work hard to get into a good college on several scholarships and I got jobs directly out of college through 2 internships and 2 co-ops that I completed during classes.

I wrote DIAMONDBACK Demo While Studying and/or Working Full-Time.

I don’t regret my decision to get an education, because otherwise everything would have fallen apart. I needed to have money to be capable of doing anything and as much as I would love to make Sage Suede my entire life, I had to prioritize the cold hard reality that I need money to survive. I am getting closer to my goals, but since I can’t afford to pay other people to make my dreams a reality, I am still trucking forward on my own. I am very happy for all of my collaborators however. For more collaboratons, check out my videos!

 

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On a random note, I was the Devil last Halloween, because my friend had a free costume in their attic. If you make up any conspiracy theories about that I will laugh, because I just told you why I wore it. I didn’t have any money for a costume at the time and it was just for fun, not to summon some kind of entity.

Sage Suede – The Demons Want Cash Flow


my name
is not fool again
my heart
is not torn apart
my hands
are not slippery
but you can pass smooth
through my fingers

years of clingers
and the social feelers
and the club rat climb
not getting higher
I feel so tired
lost all desire
and some has been wants
to shout until I’m breathless soft

I’m green
suede leather delighter
I’ll make
a light bastion
or it all comes
crashing down

I don’t need the sound
of meddlers in my
dying drones
I’ll wait
until the cake comes to me

I wilt
under the flickering
pires of ire
I’ll fake
that I’m so bougee
but my money is like loose leaf

sometimes I wish
I wasn’t weird
but I won’t disappear

I know
I’m not slow
although the demons want cash flow

their business is built on my pain anyway

I’m happier
when I can think
I won’t let you make me weak

You may have a toxic ploy
but you can’t
use me like a toy

I’ll turn the tide
I’ll strike you down…
into the ground


Let me know what you think in the comments and I’ll create more soon!

Bring my Diamondback

Sage Suede is 2 years old!

Yesterday marks the two year anniversary of the founding of this site. I released DIAMONDBACK Demo in May, 2017. You can find it through Deezer, Tidal, Amazon, Spotify, iTunes, & Soundcloud.

Just an Indie Entrepreneur

As you probably know by now, I have done just about everything for Sage Suede myself. I have performed WordPress design, graphic design, social media marketing, audio and video editing… I wrote all of my songs, played guitar, sang vocals, created the beats on all of my tracks, etc.. Music has always been a long term goal for me and I have been making decisions based around this pursuit since I was a kid. I have learned just about everything I need to know, except for how to get press for my music. This is the last step I need to take before getting consistent gigs and possibly transitioning into music full-time, at some point in the future.

I recently organized a collaboration with my favorite skater brand One Gig Co! See more on my modeling portfolio: SageSuede.com/Portfolio.

Sage Suede is 100% Independent

I am still modeling, but it’s mostly for fun. I am modeling the runway at MassArt tomorrow, which should be fun and generate some cool photos. I enjoy modeling and am mostly using the images for exposure, on instagram, and to showcase my skills for future roles.

As a musician in Boston, I have not met any label representatives in person and am still learning how the industry works. On June 3rd, I have my first booking to play original music on WEMF Radio’s Social Conditioning and have been a regular in random discussions on the program for the past few weeks. The program is based around pushing social boundaries, so it can be edgy in subject matter. They call me true goth on the program and we talk about gothic ideas a lot. True Goth is also a YouTube series I made. It’s sort of a parody of people that take the gothic lifestyle to the extreme. I also like a lot of gothic culture, so none of this web series is meant to be interpreted with any disrespect.

About The Song Bring my Diamondback

This song is loosely based on my life in March and April of this year, when I was organizing a lot of indie modeling roles, as well as some acting.

This Song is About Bringing Abundance Into Your Life

The lyrics are written in a way, so as to bring more opportunity into your life. It’s not just me bragging about myself. I use concepts in magic, where you would speak for an outcome, rather than purely based on the present. Not everything I say is meant to be taken literally, and this song is more about the intention than the situations I describe. I say “8 times” because 8 is seen as a number of abundance and by repeating it, I am seeking to bring more abundance into my life. If you have ever seen the symbol for infinity, it is just like the number 8. ∞

Variety is the Spice of Life

Personally, I think this is one of the best tracks on DIAMONDBACK Demo. I know it is unconventional to include great tracks at the end of a demo, but some of the best songs on DIAMONDBACK are at the end and it makes the demo really dynamic and interesting. It really isn’t conventional at all to include so many styles or tracks within one demo.

What The Haters Completely Misunderstood🙄

You could complain about high pitches, or slight variation in the rhythm due to the bending of the pitches, but that ignores the underlying drum rhythms in the track and the overall experimentation that makes this track so unique. It doesn’t use conventional sounds and it has a lot of buildup, created by the combination of disparate sounds. I mostly just talked on this track, rather than singing, so that wasn’t as rhythmic as my vocals on newer tracks.

More About Magical Concepts in Bring My Diamondback

When I say “Finding time for relaxation, Raising my vibration,” that is about how activities like yoga and meditation help to raise your spiritual vibration. You might think “baloney!” or whatever cheesy word you use to ignore all of the spiritual aspects of reality, but if you actually meditate for long enough, you can feel your vibration rising. To cast a positive outcome, such as the lyrics in this song, you will usually need to be in a heightened spiritual state, for it to be most effective. I have taken meditation and seership classes, which helped me to get better at this and I believe in it, but it doesn’t offend me if you don’t. Just please don’t attack me for including my interest in magic, within my music. Attacking me for considering magical concepts is a total denial of my ability to express myself freely and is an attempted violation of my civil rights.

This state of clear-headedness is similar to the colloquial phrase “zoning out,” where you let go of your thoughts in order to clear your mind. This is the blank slate you need to cast your intention in magic and spiritual practices. Unfortunately, our society is so distracted by unrelenting technology, that most people never fully clear their mental state enough to understand what I’m even talking about. Maybe I can explicate on this further another day. Please keep an open mind, even if you have no interest in these concepts.

Sage Suede – Bring my Diamondback lyrics

Finding time for relaxation
raising my vibration
a creative musician
With a touch of superstition

I’ll sing it so sweet
Huffing over the beat
I’m so experimental
On a whole new level

Haters are in denial
Some even jack my style
I have my way of thinking
And it’s more original

Talking like they know me
And I know they never will
I’m multi-metropolitan
Known all over the world

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting…
Booking photoshoots each week
Doing some acting

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting..
Been building my skills
For decades my passion

Finding time for relaxation
Raising my vibration
a creative musician
With a touch of superstition

I’ll sing it so sweet
Huffing over the beat
I’m so experimental
On a whole new level

Haters are in denial
Some even jack my style
I have my way of thinking
And it’s more original

Talking like they know me
And I know they never will
I’m multi-metropolitan
Known all over the world

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting…
Booking photoshoots each week
Doing some acting

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting..
Been building my skills
For decades my passion

Everyday’s a masquerade
I’ve seen enough of it…
My music is something new
Not so repetitive

I like my stuff a little rough
Edgy with deep bass
Take a risk, I’ll make you rich
Already making waves

Finding time for relaxation
raising my vibration
a creative musician
With a touch of superstition

I’ll sing it so sweet
Huffing over the beat
I’m so experimental
On a whole new level

Haters are in denial
Some even jack my style
I have my way of thinking
And it’s more original

Talking like they know me
And I know they never will
I’m multi-metropolitan
Known all over the world

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting…
Booking photoshoots each week
Doing some acting

Bring my Diamondback
8 times my last casting…
My fans are really smart
They like my art
They have my heart

If you like this song, please share on social media! As an independent artist, I am always struggling to make it past the advertising that appears so prominently on social platforms. I can’t afford to compete with major labels on money alone, so your support is really important.

Cleopatra

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As a Kid, One of My Favorite Things to Study Was Egyptian History

I don’t claim to be any kind of history buff and I can’t tell you the names of all the pharaohs, but I used to have more general knowledge on the subject. Ancient Egypt is an exceptional society, because it evidenced stair-step evolution. Only a few ancient civilizations had this type of development. Stair-step evolution is where there was a rapid growth in society due to the adoption of new technologies almost instantaneously, in a short period of time. In Egypt, one of these developments was their writing system and another one was their ability to build the pyramids, which has been the subject of much debate throughout time.

About Cleopatra – Queen, Polyglot, Seductress

This song is about Cleopatra VII Philopator, commonly known mononymously as Cleopatra. I touch on a few things about her, like the ambiguity surrounding her death. Some theorize she committed suicide with a poisonous snake, while others believe she was murdered. I don’t claim to know and speak more about how she is a strong queen that led her people in the song. I still mention her death a little bit, because it is a source of mystery and intrigue.

The song is a bit saucy (sexy) and I also mention one of the moments that Cleopatra is most known for, when she seduced Julius Caesar. She was wrapped up in a rug, which was unrolled in front of the emperor. In the song, I say “to win the war I’ll use the heat.” this is a reference to how Cleopatra used her sexuality to gain strategic alliances with Caesar and later, Mark Antony after Caeser’s death. This allowed for Egypt to have a position of strength and sovereignty, when it could have otherwise been crushed in war. The actions of Cleopatra preserved much of Egypt’s culture and protected the country during a period of heavy war. Trust me, you wouldn’t want the Greek army at your door!

Cleopatra Was Regarded As A Pharaoh By Many

“Caesar himself was content with Cleopatra ruling Egypt as the two of them found in each other the same kind of stratagem and intelligence, bonding them together with a mutual respect.” When meeting Mark Antony, she took the awesome approach of dressing as Aphrodite, also called Venus, goddess of love. This form of dress has also been imitated by modern performing artists on stage, like Madonna at the Superbowl in 2012. I feel like Cleopatra is someone that would have been really awesome to meet, because she was so intelligent and sexy. In some ways, you might say she still has an endearing influence of modern applications of mascara. This isn’t all her doing, but her presence in modern popular culture brought that style of winged tips to much of the western world and film featuring her likeness continues to inspire many artists today.

I chose the name Cleopatra – Snake Queen, because of her iconic headdress featuring a serpent. Snakes were also seen as a symbol of sovereignty, royalty, deity, and divine authority in ancient Egypt. Cleopatra’s death was tragic, regardless of whether or not it was self-inflicted, or at the hands of a warlord. However, it could also be perceived as a royal death, because of the symbolism of the snake. Her influence was very positive on the Egyptian people and she saved countless lives through her military alliances. I pose the question “did she ask the snake to bite her?” because this song is about strong women. We don’t know if she chose a so-called royal death over a public execution, or if she was oppressed by a man leading up to these moments. I am posing the question, because of how powerful she was and her personal strength makes it doubtful (at least to me) that she would make such a decision, unless it was her only option.

I Talk A Little Bit About Myself Too

As a musician, all of my music is going to be influenced by my point of view somewhat. I can’t speak for Cleopatra, so nothing I say should ever be regarded as fact (that would also ignore the entire intended purpose of this song – she was a strong woman that I admire). When I say phrases like: “once I wake, I make the same mistakes. Just one more day for me to face,” that comes from my own feelings of existential dread at a time when I felt trapped. I want to emphasize the beauty and strength of Cleopatra because too often women are taught to emulate vapid celebrities, leading to an abundance of self-loathing and also, sex tapes on the internet. Women are just as strong as men and they need positive role models with intelligence, like Cleopatra – she spoke 9 languages after all! Two other women in history that would be great role models for women include Joan of Arc & Queen Elizabeth I.

About The Musical Style of Cleopatra – Snake Queen

This song was a great step in the right direction for me vocally. I think that I started to develop a better voice for rock music, through the creation of this song. I used a drum machine and also some cool synths. I played the guitar in the recording as well. I am not sure if I will perform guitar on stage yet, because I use syncopated rhythms all the time and between synced drums, synced  vocals and synced guitar – it will be struggle to do more than one at once. Initially, I plan to do most performances with vocals only and probably, some dancing.

Cleopatra – snake queen lyrics

Did she ask the snake to bite her?
Cleopatra Cleopatra
Fighting just to keep her lover
Cleopatra Cleopatra
A superwoman leads with grace
Hard to die and still save face
Lovers are the loneliest
Cleopatra Cleopatra

Sphinxed me at the break of day
sands of time I won’t forget
made a vow I read in fire
with oh, so subtle
chills regret
watch me with her evil eye
kept my soul from running wild
naked in my favorite rug
smelled like the Nile lilies of love

Did she ask the snake to bite her?
Cleopatra Cleopatra
Fighting just to keep her lover
Cleopatra Cleopatra
A superwoman leads with grace
Hard to die and still save face
Lovers are the loneliest
Cleopatra Cleopatra

And once I wake
I’ll make the same mistakes
just one more day
for me to fake

Take me, use me
don’t abuse me
sandstorms are my remedy
stash, preserve the inner me
dark clouds say what I can’t speak
into the passion of my dreams
got to ration all of me
to win the war, I’ll use the heat

Did she ask the snake to bite her?
Cleopatra Cleopatra
Fighting just to keep her lover
Cleopatra Cleopatra
A superwoman leads with grace
Hard to die and still save face
Lovers are the loneliest
Cleopatra Cleopatra

Kiss your sexy venom lips
Cleopatra Cleopatra
fangs to wrist you leave me limp
Cleopatra Cleopatra
one more day is too insane
conquering all over again
wish I had a way to numb the pain
look at my eyes and tell me no again

I am the sand and I will blow away
you can’t keep controlling me

I hope that you enjoy this song. I encourage you to embrace other strong women throughout history, as patriarchal versions of history ignore their powerful impacts.

Align Light

This Song Is About Aligning For Societal Progress

We have serious problems in the U.S.A. with divisiveness in our political system. Most people don’t understand that identity politics is often a distraction from real issues that need resolutions. Often, while the mainstream discusses divisiveness in a way that achieves nothing, bills are approved in favor of elitism and tax cuts for the wealthy, as well as business efforts that may destroy wildlife, people’s houses, etc.. If the majority of society could align collectively, it would be very difficult for upper echelons to push everyone around.

I chose to advocate for education in this song, because I believe that the more intelligent we are as a country, the better off everyone is. Crime is reduced when education is more prominent and in turn this leads to more businesses that can employ more people. I believe that we should have a standardized baseline education on the internet, including free English classes for all American citizens. This would in turn increase our GDP and the buying power of American currency within the world, which is usually a good thing.

Positive Reasons For Identity Politics

I can’t deny that identity politics also serves a purpose in some other instances. There are still problems with systemic racism within most countries. Often this results in people receiving fewer opportunities, or being incarcerated. However, if we improved education across the board, that is also one of the best ways to solve these issues with inequality, because there would be more jobs and opportunities for people to hustle off of the streets.

Other things that I didn’t touch on in this song that are HUGE issues are racial profiling by law enforcement and the fact that privatized prisons can sue state governments for millions in taxpayer money for not maintaining a certain prison occupancy ratio. I don’t know why that is legal at all and it often leads to non-violent offenders being arrested for huge portions of their lives, when they may not have even harmed another human being. These are not people that need to be kept away from society and to my ears, that sounds like slavery.

There Are Better Examples For Prison Systems in The World

Regardless of how compassionate you are towards others, you have to acknowledge that this kind of thing affects everyone regardless of their race. In the U.S.A., we really should be emulating countries that have effective rehabilitation systems, such as Sweden and Norway. They can barely keep their prisons filled because they rehabilitate people to go out into the world and get good jobs. Their crime rates have plummeted and everything is more functional than it is domestically. We should be integrating people into society again, rather than using them as slave labor. I find this to be an atrocious violation of human rights and I hope that you will at least fight against this systemic form of oppression, even if you can’t understand any other form of racism.

Note: When I use the word dreamers in this song, that his nothing to do with The Dream Act. Don’t get it twisted, I didn’t even know what that was when I wrote this song.

There Are Also a Few Metaphysical Concepts in This Song

I talk about how we are all connected in a spiritual sense, as well as a political sense. When we empower others, this energy usually comes back to us in turn. If we see each other as enemies, then we won’t be able to work together on common issues.

I use a metaphor about a dragon that partially references the Join or Die snake from the early days of American history. It applies to interactions among people, as well as among states. There is also a metaphor with the dragon Tiamat present in ancient Mesopotamian mythology. When the dragon is slain, humanity achieves power over the Annunaki warlords. The dragon is also covering humanity’s ability to see heaven.

There is also a nod to Prometheus, with the concept of carrying the torch. This comes from Greek mythology and is also the premise for lighting the torch at the olympic games. I refer to the fire as knowledge being passed along and I also say that I like smart women, because I do. I always appreciate intelligence and it makes the world a better place. Help to teach others around you about societal issues and we can all “align in the light,” so the speak.

Align Light by Sage Suede


I’m a misfit
Now where to begin?
Not about my color
Or my tribe
Just want you to read my vibes
I have a lot on my mind
I prefer mysteries not the power decrees

Can’t sum me up in a vignette
You know I’m my own man

I’m a misfit
Now where to begin?
Not about my color
Or my tribe
Just want you to read my vibes
I have a lot on my mind

I like my girls smart
And looking real fine
The kind of goddess
That can help me climb

We don’t need separation
We need more integration
Our economy benefits
When we get more education …

I’m a misfit
Now where to begin?
Not about my color
Or my tribe
Just want you to read my vibes
I have a lot on my mind

We’d all be better off if we aligned

I like my girls smart
And looking real fine
The kind of goddess
That can help me climb

We don’t need separation
We need more integration
Our economy benefits
When we get more education

Don’t need to be the freshest
I am above the dirty hexes
They’re dividing up our dragon
Want to see through all the fog

I’m looking past the dreamers
With the lights off
Take down the torch
And pass the love on

Baby we are all connected
Don’t let yourself get distracted
Time to make it right
So it can shine bright

Hope you enjoy this post. I tried to help bring people together since there is so much media out there bringing us further apart.
Do your best to pass the love on <3

A Pipoca Grande

This is about a relationship I had where we ate a lot of Chicago style popcorn.

If you aren’t familiar with that flavor, it’s kind of like kettle corn with caramel and cheese mixed onto the popcorn. In that relationship, we liked to curl up on the couch and watch TV, while eating popcorn. I had a really good time and this song is reminiscing about that experience. Get yourself a large popcorn and give it a listen! Lol

This is Still a Very Experimental Track

The lyrics are meant to be a little weird and interesting. I realize the bass makes it sound sort of eerie, but that is because there are 3 levels of the bass to make it a deeper sound that is more immersive. At first I only talk about popcorn and then it gets more romantic. I miss those days… I had fun writing this song and I think that it has some interesting sounds. I am always trying to break boundaries and create something bigger than myself, so I hope you can appreciate where I’m coming from.

I LOVE FUNK BRASILEIRO

I still listen to a lot of funk (pronounced funky) that my friends in Brazil send to me. I tried to use the common beat that they use in Brazilian funk within this song, because I love this music. I listen to Brazilian funk on a regular basis because the drums are so much better than American popular music (when they divert from the simple beat). They also take more risks with the electronic sampling and that is similar to the type of music I make, because I also take many risks in electronic samples. I would love to collaborate with funkeiros in the future and I have a lot of respect for this fun genre of music!

Why Are You More Fluent in Portuguese Than Other Languages?

I mentioned this in one other post, but my mom was one of the volunteer Spanish teachers in my elementary school. I learned Portuguese very quickly, because I was exposed to a similar language at a young age. It didn’t take me much effort to get used to the accent and language of Portuguese. At this point, Portuguese has exceeded all of the other languages I speak and it is the language in which I am most fluent, after English. I usually switch to Portuguese whenever I don’t know something in Spanish.

I Also Have a Lot of Brazilian Friends.

When I was in this relationship, I spent a lot of time with Brazilians in Framingham, MA. That part of Massachusetts has a lot of Brazilian residents and even some wonderful little shops that sell authentic churrasco and açai. I love Brazilian culture and I also visited Brazil once for a month. I still have plenty of friends in Belo Horizonte and a few others across the country, such as my ex, a former roommate and a few classmates from college. Someday I will visit Brazil again! I had an amazing time and people were so warm and inviting. I even got invited to a Birthday party during the first week I was there.

The Struggles of Being a Polyglot

When I think about Brazil or a foreign language I speak, sometimes my accent changes. This is normal and I am not trying to be someone else. I also might adapt the way I act in turn, because different parts of the world have a different way of acting (that’s what culture is) and this often exists within the grammatical structure of languages. For instance, in most of Russian culture smiling is off-putting because it is like a horse bearing its teeth. This is a tradition from the soviet union, so nowadays you see a lot more smiling in Russian popular culture and they are strongly influenced by American media.

Honestly, I even have a tendency to change the way I act a little bit within the U.S.A.. I learned to be more aggressive in Boston and you also have to talk much faster than Texans are used to. If a Southerner doesn’t adapt to the speed, then no one will listen to them until the end of a sentence. You adapt to where you are and what you are doing, so it’s normal for my accent to change a bit when I am discussing another language or associate culture. I hope that makes sense; I just kind of anticipate some haters coming after me in the future and think it’s better to explain this reality in advance.

A Pipoca Grande


A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

A Confecção
Com caramel
Minha dulce
Com um pouco sal

A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

Deixando com filme ação
Sem fricção
Herói venceu

A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

A Confecção
Com caramel
Minha dulce
Com um pouco sal

A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

Gosto de sua
Connecção
Com vc tudo tem
Valor de diamante

Que perfeitinha
Toca me suavamente
Um flor delicado
rapidamente apaixonado x2

A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

A Confecção
Com caramel
Minha dulce
Com um pouco sal

Pra mim vc correta
Todo dia mal
Eu gastei todos meus ricos
Para deitar
com seu corpinho

A pipoca grande
Que delicíaa
Quentíssimaa

Deixando com filme ação
Sem fricção
Herói venceu

E nos abraçamos
Boca a boca
Assistimos televisão

Obrigado por visitar lhe o site!
Thanks for visiting! If you like my songs in Portgueuse, please let me know so I know to make more.

экспериментальная рок-звезда

At The Time I Wrote This, I was Studying Russian

I started studying Russian in middle school, because the women are gorgeous and I stumbled across a lot of Russian pop on YouTube. I went through a long Russian pop phase and I still listen to some Russian & Ukrainian pop today. These eastern European styles have a lot of roots in classical music and they kept many of the best elements of 90s pop during the early 2000s. I also think that the instrumentation from their folk music is a great addition to the style.

What is экспериментальная рок-звезда About?

Well the name is basically two words:

экспериментальная = Experimental

рок-звезда = rock-star

I wrote this song about me, because I am experimental. My Russian is not amazing, so I am expressing who I am primarily in present tense using simple phrases. I may write more Russian songs in the future, but there are still some political tensions, so I am going to wait for a while before working on it. I will need to focus on my English content first, because that is what will catch on before I can expand in such a huge way. If you don’t speak Russian, you can use google translate on any page of this site. It is in the sidebar on blog posts (possibly the bottom of the page on mobile). In Portuguese I speak better, so I use more slang (girias) and it doesn’t translate well, but most other languages should translate perfectly.

I Have Always Had a Passion For Learning Languages

I am a polyglot, partially because I studied it in school, but mostly because I studied hard enough to internalize it in my free time. Russian is a language that I loved the language enough to memorize basic phrases and the alphabet, well in advance of ever taking an introductory class. I don’t consider myself fully fluent in Russian but I understand many of the basic phrases. If you can’t tell already by the randomness of everything I have on the internet, I get bored pretty easily and I tend to switch languages a little too often too.

Russians Are Actually Really Cool

When it comes to politics, the last presidential election between Trump and Clinton had a lot of attacks on Russian people. They used the country as a premise for nuclear war when Russia really wasn’t threatening the U.S. at all. You can even hear their politicians stating this in speeches, but they still took the threats seriously and started doing nuclear drills to evacuate a majority of Moscow and St. Petersburg (note: I wish my government had functional nuclear bunkers, instead of decaying cold war buildings, that mostly have restricted access nowadays).

Russia is actually a very advanced society that is very similar to The U.S.A.. There are still internal issues, but that is inherent in any political system. They are founded on a tradition of nobility and concepts of equality that very closely mirror most other European sovereignties, but it’s up to your personal interpretation, whether or not Russia implements all of these forms of equality. I am not here to judge though, because that would also require a lot of self-reflection that most people aren’t ready for, so I won’t get into any of that.

Without the Need For A Political Enemy, We Are Mostly The Same

I have dated Russians and also been to parties where everyone was Russian. I went to college in Boston, which has a very large Russian population and my school also has one of the biggest demographics of international students. I had more than a few Russian friends in college (disclaimer: don’t you dare blame me for political outcomes in the USA) and they helped me to improve my speaking and my Russian cursive. I only took one Russian class, but I have an appreciation for many aspects of the culture. Most of the Russians I knew were surprised that I had a genuine interest in their culture and they would always ask me why, to which I would reply – I like Russian pop. Then they would laugh because the music that got me into Russian was mostly girl bands. 😅

В Техасе, мы любым водку – In Texas, We Love Vodka

If you are Russian, there are a lot of similarities with Texas. In Austin, we have a local brand of vodka called Titos that is made from corn. It is very smooth and you would love it. This is a lyric that I included in the song to help everyone understand that we are more similar than we are different. I mostly talk about myself in this song, because that is all the Russian I was able to speak. I am also thankful for the edits my friend in Kazakhstan made to my grammar. This took me a lot of tries to read all the way through, because it was quite fast and y’all have such strong R’s. That’s also one of my favorite things about the Russian language though.

экспериментальная рок-звезда

Я говорю с красивой женщиной
Очаровательной
В Техасе, мы любым водку
Бостонский классный на Инстаграм

Ей нравятся зеленые вечеринки
Ей понравилось бы танцевать в клубах
Я американец в Бостоне
Иногда я слушаю русский поп

Красивая женщина поеt
Желая успеха
Sage Suede проект
Сексуальный концепт

Хочу танцевать
Пью много водкy
Может быть
Я буду играть на гитаре на даче

Сейчас я житель метрополии
Я хочу больше денег
Хорошо выглядеть
Роскоши
Дай мне больше

Скажу с красивая
Очаровательная
В Техасе, любим водку
Бостонский классный на Инстаграм

Ей нравятся зеленые вечеринки
Ей понравилось бы танцевать в клубах
Я американец в Бостоне
Иногда Слушаю русскый поп

Она русская женщина
Любит стратсные поцелуи
Романтический пейзаж
Самостоятельных мужчин

В апартаменте
Картина кошка нуар
Красивая мишка
Он экспериментальная рок-звезда

Я говорю с красивой женщиной
Очаровательной
В Техасе, мы любым водку
Бостонский классный на Инстаграм

Ей нравятся зеленые вечеринки
Ей понравилось бы танцевать в клубах
Я американец в Бостоне
Иногда я слушаю русский поп

Красивая женщина поеt
Желая успеха
Sage Suede проект
Сексуальный концепт

Хочу танцевать
Пью много водкy
Может быть
Я буду играть на гитаре на даче

Сейчас я житель метрополии
Я хочу больше денег
Хорошо выглядеть
Роскоши
Дай мне больше

Он экспериментальная рок-звезда

Мой друг помог грамматике. Большое спасибо за посещение!
My friend helped me with the grammar. Thanks for visiting. If you want me to make more Russian songs, please let me know!

Scum of Yesterday

I Was Pretty Angry When I Wrote This

This song is about being independent of anger that has come about from negativity. We all have things that happen in our lives that we have to deal with and this song is oriented with dismissing that negativity. I use the word scum, because it’s something on the hull of a ship that just gets scraped off. Sort of like how you shrug your shoulders, or you dust off the haters – it’s the same idea behind the terminology.

Lessons Learned From This Song

I write a lot of poetry when I feel emotional and so many of the tracks on my demo started out this way. I didn’t realize until after the fact that these emotions don’t necessarily pan out that well for the listener. I used to desire independence from other people’s constructs of me so much, that I didn’t take any real consideration for the listener. This song isn’t too overpowering in terms of the emotions, because it’s written to sound pretty happy regardless. When I say “let it lay with the scum of yesterday,” that’s the same as just letting things go. It should help to overcome anger with a situation, should you choose to repeat the words.

Why Were You So Angry?

I first wrote this track about a coworker that stole my work and then said awful things about me to HR. She had her friend come in and bully me, even though they had nothing to go off of. It was blatant stealing and then she wanted to just slap her work on an article of more than 500 words that I wrote entirely by myself. She didn’t even write any of it, she was purely the editor and she wanted to credit herself because it was about PR. It was really messed up and she went on being giggly and selfish afterwards, with absolutely no recognition of what she had done. After I wrote this song, it really helped me to dismiss those feelings and I’m happy with the way this song turned out. At least I made something good out of that mess of an ordeal.

A Little About Hoodoo and Magic

This video was made independently be me. I know it’s kind of creepy, but that was sort of the point and I made it in the middle of the night.

There is a hoodoo ritual where you break an egg at a crossroads and then you walk away. I broke the egg in this video and sped up the frame rate during the walk over there. This isn’t any kind of curse and you do this when you want to dismiss negativity. Usually before doing so you give the egg your bad energy and it is to deflect negativity (or curses) that are directed at you. At the end of the video, I’m just kind of waving around thorns. Thorns are also consider to be symbolic of protection and they can be laid over doorways or windowsills to keep out negative energy. There is also an owl in the video, which is protective too and fits nicely with the other imagery.

I tagged this post as magic, because of it’s associations with these concepts. I do not advocate any form of cursing, because it will usually come back to you in full force. People have a bad tendency to label and judge others in a way that can often be negative and this is energy that eventually travels back to you. I am aware of dark magic, but primarily so that I can protect myself. If you’ve read what some people say about the music industry online, you will understand why there is a need to be concerned. In this video, it is conceptual and there’s no need to read into it in too much depth. I think that this concept was a little too spooky for most people, but it was a fun FOIL (literary term) to the positive energy of the song.

Scum of Yesterday by Sage Suede


I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels
but I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed no
when you get pestilent
you can curse and scoff
but you won’t look so soft
reality will hit you harsher

You can berate
go and manipulate
but I won’t take part
in your
deceptive arts

Hey, no way
it’s not right to hate so clueless
let you know now
better to make a dream
than bring to ruin

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels but
I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

No one listens to
your hate chatter
your anti-matter

I hope you like this song! Your support means a lot to me.

New Recordings for DIAMONDBACK

Making Lots of Progress on DIAMONDBACK Demo

I’m starting to get a good track-list going and I expect to get DIAMONDBACK Demo out soon. There was recently a full moon in Leo this past weekend and I couldn’t agree more that I am in a better position to work towards my goals and assert myself, although I tend to be a bit shy. I read about astrology sometimes, although the most useful is probably current astronomical events and I may mention them in the blog, because it’s interesting to me.

Sage Suede is Inclusive of Diversity

I think it’s important that I establish the kind of person I am, because I want Sage Suede to be an inclusive musical act. Even when people have prejudices, I want them to understand that acceptance of diversity is a necessity at my concerts. I want to stand up for what’s right, whenever I see prejudice at my concerts and I hope that my fans will do so as well.

Maybe, Sometimes it’s a bit off-putting

I try to speak out and support progress within society. Usually I talk about this kind of thing on Twitter and honestly, in many ways this has been to my own detriment. I have lost fans while supporting various positive things within society, but I don’t regret that. I am not a politician, so I might not mention everything that it on my mind, but I still want my presence to make the world a better place. Although I try to speak out, I also don’t want to make myself a target, so if you ever see me remove something in retrospect, that’s probably why.

Just a Little Sage Magic

I also believe in magic. I guess that may be weird to a lot of people, but a good way to explain it to non-believers is in terms of that book The Secret. Basically, the book says that what you put out into the world is what you ultimately receive; that is essentially the same thing as pretty much every magical practice and religion (i.e. prayer). I research a lot of different spiritual belief systems and practices, because I find that stuff very interesting. As a result, you will also hear me mentioning magic and magic concepts within my songs. You don’t have to believe in any of it and I’m not starting a cult. I might make more videos about magical practices, but that doesn’t mean that I advocate for it either. Personally, I have seen how much magic impacts my life and I don’t have any doubt in my mind. I don’t really care what other people think about that, it’s just something that I probably won’t stop mentioning in my work.

Happy Valentinesday! I’m spending it alone with myself. #metime #selflove

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Songs Re-visited

So I returned to my alma mater, Northeastern University, recently for this recording session and recorded a few tracks. One of my friends reserved the studio for me, so that I could do so, even though I was an alumni – Thanks Jon! I am attaching these two songs to this post because it’s Valentinesday and I want some of the more romantic songs to be out there while all of us single people eat chocolate and maybe cry. If you have someone to lick your toes (for lack of a more interesting semi-erotic metaphor), then that’s great and I hope you enjoy your day too!

Sexy in That Sweater


You can also find the original here, but this version is better imo. It’s about a friend that used to wear sweaters all the time and we were always thrifting for sweaters. I kept thrifting for sweaters afterwards, because we were really close and she taught me about how great the tactile aspect of sweaters are. We were best friends for a long time and I miss that. You can learn more about this song here.

Lazy Sunday with You


You can find the video version of this song here. I didn’t have an audio version of this before, so I’m releasing one now. I mention auras in the song: supposedly babies, young kids, many animals and gurus can see them easily. It doesn’t come too easily to me, as I’ve always had an easier time feeling than seeing things. I’m not particularly oriented towards psychic vision. There’s even a wikihow article on it, if it interests you.

Anyways, I will try not to cause a hullabaloo by talking about magic too much. It is just a common subject of study for me and an influence that definitely plays a role in my songwriting. I’m trying to finish up DIAMONDBACK Demo soon and I hope that you’ll like it. It’s been a lifetime of hard work and experience that’s finally starting to come to fruition.

  1. Soft Serve Chillin SAGE SUEDE 4:36
  2. On Your Lips SAGE SUEDE 3:59
  3. Short Skirt SAGE SUEDE 3:06
  4. ElectroPapi SAGE SUEDE 4:36
  5. Be my Boo SAGE SUEDE 3:02
  6. Un Photo De Toi Nu SAGE SUEDE 3:02
  7. Lazy Sunday with You (Shaky Lips) SAGE SUEDE 2:03
  8. How Can I SAGE SUEDE 2:23