Demons Want Cash Flow

There are a lot of 7s in today’s date so what better time to talk about this song.

I don’t plan to perform it, but I included it on the album so that people would know that I was coming from a hard place. I had to overcome a lot of depression and anxiety in the past few years. I’m still shy, so it’s taken a lot of practice for me to branch out and learn to be a performer. I am only a bit extroverted to begin with and I’m skilled at marketing and social media, but I don’t crave attention in social settings. I used to be so shy that I would choke anytime I auditioned for a theatrical role, or did a clarinet competition. I’ve been doing different kinds of performances throughout my life that have led me to be more confident and outgoing, but that doesn’t change the fact that I used to be depressed. Actually, most of my poetry is too sad to share, as were most of my songs when I started sharing music online.

I don’t want to get into the details of this song, but I felt like it was important to share because it shows a little more about negative experiences that helped to make me the person I am today. I don’t want to align myself with these feelings, which is why I don’t plan to perform this song (unless people really like it, it has a few likes on soundcloud), but these feelings are still a part of who I am. I have chosen to be happy because it’s better for me. I am trying my best to keep my aura clear and to focus on positive materialization.

There is also a line about “my dying drones”. It is in terms of the fact that we are always getting closer to death and most all entertainment industries are youth-centric; that means that it is harder and harder to simply be a part of music or modeling as I age, even though these are things I love to do. I’m not going to let some heckler keep me from being happy, because they’re keeping themselves from being happy by acting that way in the first place. I’ve been through too much to let them affect the outcome of my life and I am doing this all independently, so it’s up to me to make it happen. None of this would exist right now if I hadn’t worked for it my entire life.

I am prioritizing getting a day job to pay off my debt, since moving back to Austin and I have fallen behind on my YouTube series, but definitely check out my videos! I have plans for a bunch of guests in the coming weeks and I am still making new music, as well as having discussions in the new money magic series and SAGE perSUEDE!

On a random note, I was the Devil last halloween because the costume was free. I thought it was relevant to the song title.

Sage Suede – The Demons Want Cash Flow

my name
is not fool again
my heart
is not torn apart
my hands
are not slippery
but you can pass smooth
through my fingers

years of clingers
and the social feelers
and the club rat climb
not getting higher
I feel so tired
lost all desire
and some has been wants
to shout until I’m breathless soft

I’m green
suede leather delighter
I’ll make
a light bastion
or it all comes
crashing down

I don’t need the sound
of meddlers in my
dying drones
I’ll wait
until the cake comes to me

I wilt
under the flickering
pires of ire
I’ll fake
that I’m so bougee
but my money is like loose leaf

sometimes I wish
I wasn’t weird
but I won’t disappear

I know
I’m not slow
although the demons want cash flow

their business is built on my pain anyway

I’m happier
when I can think
I won’t let you make me weak

You may have a toxic ploy
but you can’t
use me like a toy

I’ll turn the tide
I’ll strike you down…
into the ground

Let me know what you think in the comments and I’ll create more soon!


Jessie Lesure (4 months ago)

Thanks for ones marvelous posting! I actually enjoyed reading it, you will be a great author.I will be sure to bookmark your blog and will eventually come back in the foreseeable future. I want to encourage yourself to continue your great posts, have a nice day!

sagesuede (2 months ago)

Thanks Jessie, I appreciate it!

Codi Sunderman (4 months ago)

You can definitely see your skills in the work you write. The world hopes for even more passionate writers like you who are not afraid to say how they believe. Always go after your heart.