Why Your Astrological Sign Is Probably Wrong

I Have Read a Little Bit About Astrology, so I Thought I’d Share Some Magic

As an example, here is my natal chart. It has tidbits for anyone that is skilled in reading them. The outer rings are astrological signs and the inner symbols are the planets in each degree. There are also some sub-planets like Chiron, which represents deeply-rooted pain. I don’t want to go into excessive detail, but I will post about this again if people ask for it.

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Why Your Astrological Sign Is Probably Wrong

When it comes to astrology, there are a lot of different kinds of charts. I don’t believe in tropical astrology, because it was based on charting of the planets 2 millenia ago. Instead, I use sidereal astrology. I understand why some people prefer to go by tropical and that’s why I’ll explain how I felt about it when learning about sidereal. I didn’t understand that a different system might be more accurate in terms of the position of the planets and for me, the periodic influences of planets should be based on their real, astronomical position. Your astrological sign is like the reference point for how to interpret planetary influences as the planets travel through signs throughout the year.

You might even be considered Ophiuchus or, “the new 13th sign”. It’s not a new sign at all, actually and that’s not a bad thing. It’s because there are more than 12 signs in the sky, but the sun only travels through 13 signs. Ophiuchus was likely removed to round downand simplify math, or maybe because multiples of 3 are holy. I’m sure it was easier to make an astrological wheel with 12 signs too, since 360 is divisible by 12. There are ~365.242199 days in a year though, so things were bound to get funky.

The most popular form of astrology is tropical astrology. It’s so much more domineering that if you look up astrology that’s what you will find by default. When I first learned about it, I didn’t get it. I always thought I was an Aquarius and felt that the sign described me well. So anyways, I checked a real astronomical charting program and that’s when I saw that at the time of my birth, my sun was in Capricorn.

Learning more about Capricorn has shown me that I have a lot of those traits. I won’t go into detail but a lot of great musicians have been Capricorns, like Elvis. Here are some of the planetary symbols from NASA’s website:

How to Find Your Sidereal Astrological Sign

I recommend using your natal chart. I used this site to generate mine.

I know it’s a little hard to understand, but I can make some videos to help y’all with it. I think it’s important to understand which planets are in your home sign, so that you’ll know how the position of the planets is relative to your person. It’s kind of superstitious and up to interpretation, but I love foreign languages, magic, esotericism and spirituality so I include aspects of this in my music and want to share it with people, since it’s fun to learn about.

Important concepts to understand about your planets

1. You are ruled by the planets that are in your sign. In a general sense, that means that the characteristics of each planet may have some effect on you.
2. Your sign is determined by your sun sign.
3. The position of the planets changes as they orbit the sun and their influences change accordingly. This is on a case by case basis based on where and when you were born.
I don’t want to go into too much detail about astrology but leave a comment if you’re interested and I’ll help you learn more.

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This blog post talks a lot about magic. You can learn more about how to connect with planets in this video.

Magic Squares are just one method of connecting with planets and generally mantras are based on deities. You can choose your own mantra, deity or say the planets name directly.

This type of magic is primarily based on intention. The video below is based on the sun. The sign your sun is in determines your astrological sign at birth and it is the primary planet of wealth.

I read this in a book on dark magic, but it’s not dark. It is borrowed from Hindu traditions and you can re-frame it to your beliefs as appropriate. I am just talking about aligning with planets and recommend having a practice to align with all of the planets in your home sign.

Believe in Yourself When No One Else Will & You Will Succeed

I’ve been a musician for my entire life. No one has ever handed me a song on a silver platter with pre-recorded vocals and instrumental tracks.

How many albums were made this way in 2018?

I have been the only person working on Sage Suede, except for my collaborations. I actually only started modeling because I thought it would help me as a musician and it’s helped a bit with my online presence, but that hasn’t always been a part of my life. I like modeling, but as a child I thought it was too shallow to even consider it. I thought ageism reduced it’s viability greatly and didn’t live in a big city where gigs are. It became something that I did independently. I’ve organized many of my photoshoots with indie photographers and cut my hair in almost all of my photoshoots.

I just want y’all to know that I am really dedicated to what I’m doing and I know about most of the mistakes I’ve made along the way. I don’t think that those mistakes invalidate any of the music I’ve released online, even though I am always working towards perfection.

Releasing my music online has resulted in a lot of backlash for me, I’ve been even more isolated than I tend to be and it’s been stressful for me emotionally. Still, it’s what I love and I can’t imagine a life without it. I hope that someday I can make this my entire life, but for now, I’m still slaving away at work, before creating things in my free time. I love what I create and those imperfections are just where I was at in becoming the person I am today. I had to make mistakes to keep growing and I am still working towards my goals.

If you want to be something, then keep working towards it. No one can tell you that you’re wrong for following your heart.

Bird Girl

Another Song About a Previous Relationship

I wrote this about my first relationship in college. It’s about both being in a romantic relationship, as well as a strong, independent women. My ex was mentally strong and it is a quality that I admired about her. She wore bright red lipstick a lot and she was actually really cool. That’s why I say “an unifinished nest” because there is probably some iteration of reality, in which we did stay together. I felt a good connection with her and we had a positive relationship together.

She Liked France a Lot

She stopped showering for a while, just because it was something that she told me was typical of French culture. She said that they didn’t shower and they wore a lot of cologne. We were together for about half a year, but we broke up while we spent a summer apart. She went to France and I went to Brazil for a brief study abroad. We didn’t see each other after the month ended either, as we had to go home before the commencement of other classes. A few months apart is difficult for any relationship. Sometimes I wonder how I would have acted if I was more mature in that situation.

How That Relationship Ended

While I was in Brazil, I went to a bar called Al Capone’s with a bunch of friends. I met an attractive woman in a red corset and we really hit it off. I danced with her and then we made out for a while. We didn’t hook up or anything, but she left her business card in my pocket.

I didn’t feel bad about it and that’s how I knew I needed to end my relationship. I do not condone cheating and I am not about that life. When I didn’t feel bad about violating my relationship (in my opinion), I cut things off. It was out of consideration for my partner’s feelings, because I didn’t want to lead her on. I did miss her and we had a lot of good times together, but it just wasn’t the right relationship for me. Maybe it was just the timing and of course, being in different countries is a huge burden on any couple. I don’t think that I was entirely emotionally ready for a relationship at that point in time. I don’t regret it and I actually place a lot of value in her as a person.

Unfortunately, We Weren’t Able to Stay Friends

We tried to stay friends for a while, but we just weren’t ever able to communicate the same way again. At the end of college, we hung out a little bit with mutuals and we were able to be cool with each other. After college, we were able to catch up a little bit online but that’s where things left off. I’m glad that she was so positive and strong throughout that entire ordeal and I wish I could have been a better person for her. In a way, this song is me trying to immortalize what we used to have. Most relationships that start freshmen year of college are doomed to fail anyway.

What About the Red Corset Girl?

Umm, she put her business card in my pocket when she left. She was a wedding planner in Brazil and I didn’t call her while I was still there. Leaving a relationship was enough burden for me at that point and I wasn’t ready for another one. I used to wish that I had gotten to know her, but I was only in Brazil for one month so there wasn’t much hope. I thought about friending her on Facebook after returning to The U.S., but by then it didn’t seem worth it anymore. It would be cool, if we have a chance encounter some day but it’s highly unlikely.

Musical Composition of Bird Girl

I wrote this song on guitar, before I created the drum beat. This is one of the songs I made with ProTools, when I still had access to it on the Northeastern University library computers. I only use Ableton now, because ProTools is ridiculously expensive. I think that this song came together rather nicely and had a good cohesiveness to it. Lyrically, it has powerful metaphors that illustrate a really interesting scenario. The metaphors don’t exactly mirror the way our relationship was, but they have a raunchy feeling to them that captures the sensual energy of our relationship.

Bird Girl lyrics by Sage Suede


Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all the happiest dreams

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

like an unfinished nest
on a motel out west
not free to park
but with a fully stocked mini bar

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all close contact
I’ll like your ear
you’ll text back

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

spread your wings and fly high
with apathy that never dies

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

young love electrified

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

And now I’m left with nothing
but all this would be loving
just took a red corset
another’s lips and now I’m
lost again

Yes, I lick ears and that is usually a turn on for musicians lol. I didn’t train my cat to do that though.

New Recordings for DIAMONDBACK

Making Lots of Progress on DIAMONDBACK Demo

I’m starting to get a good track-list going and I expect to get DIAMONDBACK Demo out soon. There was recently a full moon in Leo this past weekend and I couldn’t agree more that I am in a better position to work towards my goals and assert myself, although I tend to be a bit shy. I read about astrology sometimes, although the most useful is probably current astronomical events and I may mention them in the blog, because it’s interesting to me.

Sage Suede is Inclusive of Diversity

I think it’s important that I establish the kind of person I am, because I want Sage Suede to be an inclusive musical act. Even when people have prejudices, I want them to understand that acceptance of diversity is a necessity at my concerts. I want to stand up for what’s right, whenever I see prejudice at my concerts and I hope that my fans will do so as well.

Maybe, Sometimes it’s a bit off-putting

I try to speak out and support progress within society. Usually I talk about this kind of thing on Twitter and honestly, in many ways this has been to my own detriment. I have lost fans while supporting various positive things within society, but I don’t regret that. I am not a politician, so I might not mention everything that it on my mind, but I still want my presence to make the world a better place. Although I try to speak out, I also don’t want to make myself a target, so if you ever see me remove something in retrospect, that’s probably why.

Just a Little Sage Magic

I also believe in magic. I guess that may be weird to a lot of people, but a good way to explain it to non-believers is in terms of that book The Secret. Basically, the book says that what you put out into the world is what you ultimately receive; that is essentially the same thing as pretty much every magical practice and religion (i.e. prayer). I research a lot of different spiritual belief systems and practices, because I find that stuff very interesting. As a result, you will also hear me mentioning magic and magic concepts within my songs. You don’t have to believe in any of it and I’m not starting a cult. I might make more videos about magical practices, but that doesn’t mean that I advocate for it either. Personally, I have seen how much magic impacts my life and I don’t have any doubt in my mind. I don’t really care what other people think about that, it’s just something that I probably won’t stop mentioning in my work.

Happy Valentinesday! I’m spending it alone with myself. #metime #selflove

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Songs Re-visited

So I returned to my alma mater, Northeastern University, recently for this recording session and recorded a few tracks. One of my friends reserved the studio for me, so that I could do so, even though I was an alumni – Thanks Jon! I am attaching these two songs to this post because it’s Valentinesday and I want some of the more romantic songs to be out there while all of us single people eat chocolate and maybe cry. If you have someone to lick your toes (for lack of a more interesting semi-erotic metaphor), then that’s great and I hope you enjoy your day too!

Sexy in That Sweater


You can also find the original here, but this version is better imo. It’s about a friend that used to wear sweaters all the time and we were always thrifting for sweaters. I kept thrifting for sweaters afterwards, because we were really close and she taught me about how great the tactile aspect of sweaters are. We were best friends for a long time and I miss that. You can learn more about this song here.

Lazy Sunday with You


You can find the video version of this song here. I didn’t have an audio version of this before, so I’m releasing one now. I mention auras in the song: supposedly babies, young kids, many animals and gurus can see them easily. It doesn’t come too easily to me, as I’ve always had an easier time feeling than seeing things. I’m not particularly oriented towards psychic vision. There’s even a wikihow article on it, if it interests you.

Anyways, I will try not to cause a hullabaloo by talking about magic too much. It is just a common subject of study for me and an influence that definitely plays a role in my songwriting. I’m trying to finish up DIAMONDBACK Demo soon and I hope that you’ll like it. It’s been a lifetime of hard work and experience that’s finally starting to come to fruition.

Demoback

Sage Suede – Demoback

I wrote these songs, because I intended to use them in DIAMONDBACK Demo. Washboard didn’t make the cut, solely because my computer crashed and I lost the file. I have never had expensive equipment and I am always making due with what I have. At the time I recorded these, I was able to utilize the recording studio at Northeastern University. I got into Northeastern by working hard in high school and graduating at the top of my class. I was only able to go, because I got the dean’s half-tuition scholarship, a scholarship from Pedernales and Huggs-Trust. Otherwise, I would have drowned in debt.

Musical Style of this Demo

It’s challenging combining electric guitar with electronic beats, because it can easily be overpowering. Then I have problems with wanting to play guitar in complicated rhythms that I can’t do while singing at the same time. I used a drum machine app for Cleopatra and Bird Girl, but will probably generate drum beats with Ableton from now on, because it gives me more flexibility with the rhythm. Before, I was struggling to reinstall ableton after my hard drive crashed, but my dad helped me through that – Thanks Dad!

Collaborations & Artistic Vision

I’m not sure what the future will bring and I may start doing more collaborations to bring more energy into my work. I can also play the instruments for songwriting, but I’m not going to be able to do keyboards and guitar live simultaneously, so I’ll have to work with somebody else on that. I think that initially I will just sing with a background track, because I always use syncopated rhythms and that makes it too difficult to play guitar at the same time. I guess for now I just need to finish the songs and can figure that out later.

My goal is to sound like I’m playing in a deserted night club, or like an underground fashion show in a warehouse. Something that is vaguely grungy, but also sophisticated with moody electronic beats. Still these are just ideas and I’ll see what ends up happening once I get deeper into the music.

This is a journey for me and as I evolve, so will my music. Thanks for listening!

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Julep (Acoustic)

Sage Suede – Julep (Acoustic)

I recorded Julep as an acoustic song. It wasn’t something that I chose to continue working on afterwards, even though my original intention was to create it in a more completed version with a backing track. You can see the video for Julep below and on my YouTube channel.

Always Making Progress on My Music

I am still evolving a lot as an artist and even as this was recorded a few days ago, my sound has changed a lot. Recently, this is mostly evident in the way I sing. If you’ve been following me, you may have noticed my name changed from AJ Bluejay to Sage Suede. This was for a variety of reasons but mostly I feel like I’m a different person and the music I had released to date as AJ Bluejay was too soft to really represent who I am. I was in a sad place when I wrote a lot of those songs and most of them are too sad for me to even perform. Sage Suede has a stronger presence, will feature better production quality and better embodies who I am as a person.

Why Sage Suede?

I Love Herbal Medicine

I chose the name Sage, because I have been strongly influenced by herbal medicine. Whenever I get sick, I turn to my trusty Herbal Remedies dictionary by Asa Hershoff, N.D. and Andrea Rotelli, N.D.. It has herbs listed by ailment, so I can look up whatever I, or a friend, is afflicted with. Then I can find herbs that may help. I’ve cured a lot of my ailments this way, but I don’t necessarily recommend it. Herbs tend to be a little safer than pharmaceuticals, depending on which herb, but you should still take note of side effects and any inherent risks.

I Enjoy Studying Magic & Spirituality

I also like the name Sage because it is a voice of someone that people look to for guidance and I would like to influence people to make healthy life choices. A sage is also a spiritual leader and is associated with magical circles. In addition, Sage is used in cleansing rituals and it’s just generally a positive thing.

So Why Are You Suede? Isn’t That a Fabric?

I like fashion and thought suede was good as a descriptive term because my voice can be soft, but also tough like leather. I know that I have a little bit of roughness vocally and that’s something that I embrace and often emphasize in my music. The biggest downside is my search rankings and I really hope I start showing up on search engines above a bunch of average looking boots (please hear my prayers Alfabet, Gods of SEO)… update: idk if saying it as a prayer worked but my SEO is great now.

Sage Suede – Julep

This song was partially about a girl I dated. She was pretty but we weren’t actually compatible in the end. I wish that things had panned out a little differently, so that we could have had a fighting chance, but it was never really there. We happened to hang out on a very beautiful day at the reservoir. I don’t feel like she ever really gave me a chance but that isn’t important. This is just a song with some general feelings I had at the time.

Julep, come quick
had an ankle bracelet
sun-kissed freckles
brown eyes bespeckled

short hair, you don’t care
about the way they speak
you know you’re beautiful
and they can be so mean

take my troubles dump them in the sea

Julep, shorten
the path to my serenity
the happy is inside of me

I complain, when it rains
I down black coffee while you read
your mysteries

boiled that tiger down
into a tea

your cosmic ray
brightens black celophane
their plastic pop
glowed when you sang

you had a way
to kill the hurt in me
with rose gold lips
you have me happily

You said touch builds desire
memory of foam
you taught me that troubles are
where you let them roam

your specialty was speaking low
softer than the lake
I saw you late last Friday night
I felt adrenaline

Julep, come quick
had an ankle bracelet
sun-kissed freckles
brown eyes bespeckled

short hair, you don’t care
about the way they speak
you know you’re beautiful
and they can be so mean

mesmerized by your thighs
tight leggings

Julep, shorten
the path to my serenity
the happy is inside of me

I complain, when it rains
I down black coffee while you read
your mysteries

let’s stay home
we’ll have peaches and cream

Sage Suede Bird Girl Recording
I recorded Bird Girl in the studio at Northeastern University this week.

Finishing Up College & Rushing on DIAMONDBACK Demo

My last semester at Northeastern University is this spring and I am rushing to finish DIAMONDBACK Demo, while I still have free access to the recording studio in the library. I feel like I’m constantly interacting with people that want to tear me down, but then again it’s basically been that way my entire life, so I’m glad I have lived in Boston. I needed the strength and aggression that Bostonians have to make it through conflicts in my life. As someone that grew up in Austin, I used to be a little too passive and that is a better way to treat others, but I needed to have that aggression as well. Tbh, I was probably a little too aggressive leaving Boston.

I Have Been Writing Music For a Long Time

I have been writing acoustic songs since high school, but no one has heard them because I have a high standard of quality. I also dabbled in beat production starting in middle school and took a free audio engineering course at Austin Community College in high school. I have performed in two musical revues for more singing experience through NUStage and did musical theater in high school, solely to improve my singing voice. I didn’t actually enjoy the music in musicals and I consider it to be way too cheesy, in a way that is practically unreal. However, I dedicated my time to it and grew vocally from my experiences.

Sage Suede is an Original Musician

Ultimately, my style is my own and I refuse to be an archetype, to copy blindly, or sacrifice my creativity and personality to fit into a genre. My music can’t exist without creativity and although it could become a business some day, I don’t ever want to make music that isn’t true to who I am. That will take a bit of learning on my part, because most of my early songs are way too sad, but I will start to express happier aspects of my reality.

A long time coming

I have had a passion for music since I was a child. I used to always be shy and scared as a performer, so I found the judgments of others difficult to cope with. In spite of that, I have performed throughout my life at concerts, on stages, for memorial services, etc. and it’s become more natural to me. I am done living in the shadow of a mediocre music industry and I’m not letting people step on me anymore. My music is gonna be released one way or another and I hope to entertain by being genuine, incorporating a wide-variety of my personal musical influences and to pull it all together in a way that allows people to see themselves as individuals, independent of societal definitions of happiness. I am making music to express myself, not to be someone else’s definition of ideal and as I grow, I want my fans to grow with me.

A lot of you are good friends of mine and I just want you to know that I really appreciate your interest in my music. Please share.

I still have a very long road ahead of me and I need all the help I can get!

It’s Alright (Fall in Love Again)

This Song is About Opportunity

When I first wrote this song, I was coming back from a depressed period in my life. I wrote it after Never Meant to Fall into… and honestly, it could not have been a more appropriate time. Summer was returning after a very cold winter and I was starting to get involved in modeling at school.

I was running a lot and averaging around 6 miles each run. I don’t run as much now, because I am a hard gainer and this kept me skinny for a long time. Some of the things that I enjoyed during this time were Boston Pride 2015 parade and Squeezebox Slam 2015. Pride was really liberating for me and I think it was my first pride. In Boston, I want to say most of the city is gay, so there is always a huge turnout and even Elizabeth Warren attends annually.

When I finished the song It’s Alright (Fall in Love Again), I wasn’t in a relationship. I think I had broken up with my girlfriend of 5 months a few months prior. She was great and I can say for a fact that she was one of the most beneficial relationships I have ever had.

I wrote this song about love in general, but I’m sure that there were a few people that were really on my mind. I was still sad, but I was in a better place than I had been before and in retrospect, I can understand that I got to that place by being with people that treated me right. Love is something that is unfortunate to lose, but it can be found anew almost anywhere. You shouldn’t waste it and it’s sad how often relationships fall apart for mundane reasons. However, when you think about it, it is inevitable that you will eventually fall back into love – even when you feel empty at present. In the end, if you lose it all, then that just means that the love lost was worth living. The more it hurts, the more meaningful the experience was for you and that is something to cherish, regardless of how much pain it may cause.

Sage Suede – It’s Alright (Fall in Love Again)

It’s Alright (Fall in Love Again):

I never said it would be forever
You had me on a tether
I used to love you at your leisure
I never knew why or whether we would

/Chorus/
Fall in love again
It was so long ago I held your hand
If we can resolve our differences
If we can stay in present tense

I don’t know what’s the matter
Things have never been better
And if your lips want mine
Maybe it’ll happen one more time
to

//Chorus//

Your pepper print dress
Waves to me you’re gone
Time was short
But for me it felt so long
Fingers so soft,
I want them in my palms
I have never felt so enthralled
to

//Chorus//

But one day
I’ll find my heart turned gold

It’s alright
It’s alright to lose it all

I know that most of my earlier songs are a bit sad, but I was speaking from the heart. Thanks for listening. 

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Never Meant to Fall into…

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Never Meant to Fall into… by Sage Suede

I wrote this song when I was really sad. It’s not something that I spent too much time on, as far as instrumentation and such.
I felt really awful about myself and my life at the time. I had roommates that discriminated against me and made me feel like less of a person. I felt like no one valued me for who I was and it was hard for me to ever be myself in what felt like a hostile place. I had a few friends, but most of them were extremely shallow and I can count on my hand the number that I stayed friends with after college. Most of my friends feel the same way about the people they met. It’s unfortunate how hard it is to welcome people into our lives as we get older…

Everything Was Freezing Cold

At the time, I had just moved to Boston. It was really cold and everyone was very cold to me. In my first two years of college we had something like 2 hurricanes, several blizzards and the marathon bombing. I did enjoy aspects of living there, like the places I went and the friends that did have respect for me, but there were so few of them that it made me very depressed. I was suicidal and this was actually before I went through some tough times. I don’t care if anyone believes me, but you can hear the pain in my voice. I don’t need to disclose everything about myself to know what I was going through.

There Are Two Versions of This Song

The first version is un-mastered and the second one is mastered. Initially I just wrote the song to express myself. That’s the main reason I ever wrote any music and the number one reason I wrote poems was because I was sad. I don’t think I would perform this song, because it would make me really sad. I am also not sure if I could because performing usually makes me happy. It is a side of myself that is so vulnerable, that I couldn’t stand to open myself to criticism. I know that it still has all of the issues that could be criticized, but that isn’t something that bothers me in an online freebie. The main reason I have it online is so that people can see my progress.

In both versions, I played ukulele. I intentionally used dissonant chords. In the re-mastered version, I also used a ping pong vocal effect and some reverb on the ukulele. I made the unfortunate mistake of leaving extra space at the end of the re-mastered version, but what better way to show my progress than to leave my mistakes out in the open! That’s how you know I’m a real artist that actually composes their music from start to finish.

Sage Suede – Never Meant to Fall Into

Un-mastered

Re-Mastered


Why am I still dizzy?
You know you’ve got me in a tizzy, missy
If I drown inside your whirlpool
I was never meant to fall into

/Chorus/
Love
It’s a blessing and a curse
I feel like I might burst
I can feel it in my nerves
The NSA found out first

You keep me on your little finger
dangling from a string
I am not man, I’m mouse
When we’re playing this here game//

Why am I not breathing
The air’s too thin and I’m left wheezing
If I’m writhing in your orbit
I was never meant to fall into

//Chorus//
Why do I feel fizzy?
I’m Wonka bonkers, my feet are lifting
If I die while in your current
I was never meant to fall into

//Chorus//
I don’t feel like singing anymore
I’m empty and devoid and
I’m made too much noise and
I like to see you flutter
but all I can do is stutter
now what words could I mutter
you’re melting me like butter
I’ve always been soft and I
don’t know how to love quite right

My heart is bruised and bloodied
it’s like a potato chip in the sink
that no one wants to eat
or like a piece of rotten meat

You just look so lovely
I feel like sunscreen on a hippo
awkward, not located right
somehow it’s skin is still too moist

my heart might walk away
if you don’t want me
I may die today
and if you look my way
I lose control, heart palpitates

//Chorus//
Why am I still leaning
on this broken rail above this cliff
if I fall into the abyss
I was never meant to fall into
Love

I have a feeling that the NSA laughed when I wrote this, because they probably did listen to it when I didn’t have a fanbase yet. lol

Both versions of this are on 2018 Freebies & Bangers!

Pretty Eyes

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Sage Suede – Pretty Eyes

The first song I recorded as Sage Suede is called Pretty Eyes. I wrote this about a girl I used to date. I was a lot more sad about the breakup back then, so it may be a little dramatic.

The day I wrote this, I went clubbing with my roommate in college and a few of his friends. I was messaging her while we were out but one of his friends told me that I shouldn’t because she would think he was too interested.

I feel like one of the biggest struggles our generation faces is trying to tell people we care about them, when we still have to appear nonchalant and unattached. Disinterest is sexy, but it can also mean you aren’t interested at all. Unfortunately, that line is very blurred and often people go after others that have no love for them, just because they don’t give them much attention. Another problem with this air of nonchalance is if both sides play that game and it keeps them from ever falling in love.

I’ve always been the kind of person that loves a lot and won’t hold back with my feelings. As a result, it’s not uncommon for me to scare people away by appearing too interested. I also just talk way too much for most people. I don’t feel bad admitting that and it doesn’t bother me, because if someone doesn’t like me for who I am, then we just aren’t right for each other.

Composition of Pretty Eyes

The song is a bit said lyrically and ends talking about the idea in Buddhism that everything you have you will eventually lose. That is a sad sentiment, but it’s also very real and Buddhists usually talk about this concept at funerals. If you are aware that you will eventually lose everything, then you won’t hold onto things as strongly and it is easier to accept change. I learned this from meditation seminars at a meditation school. I don’t want to say which one, because I worked there for a few months too.

I wrote this song on a Saturday morning before an acting audition at Boston University. I’m trying to improve my stage presence by getting more experience in acting and modeling. I didn’t get the role, but I have become involved in NUStage at Northeastern University and met a lot of cool people. You can learn more about my acting experience on my portfolio page.

Let me know what you think of the song by commenting on this blog post. At the time I wrote it, I was going by AJ Bluejay.

Pretty Eyes:
Chorus//

Punish me with pretty eyes
hurt me with your perfect smile
you’re so unbelievable
that I can’t say a word
without being weird
The dating game is high and dry
my name to you is just some guy
the drinks at this club
cost a pretty dime
you’re like a feather
when the wind blows you pass me by//

Want to receive my love arrow?
You know I ain’t no pharaoh
I don’t have the gold
and I don’t know what I’m scared of

It I tell you that I care
all you’ll do is stare
leave me to get drunk and pass out
walking up the stairs

//Chorus//

Our generation won’t commit
we already have too much shit
I don’t care if it sounds dishonest
I want to love you lawless
I’m not desperate, I just care for you
but to play the game we stay as two

as soon as I express myself
you’d rather be with someone else
does he treat you like a queen
or is he just using you for some pussy
You won’t want me until we’re thirty
and by then we’ll live in different countries

//Chorus//

These words ring on deaf ears
You’d rather hear a song about
Shaking your ass and making cash
You lost me at the ATM
it’s all as the Buddha said
we’ve been on and off for years
everything is temporary

Thanks for checking out my work, more soon to come!

previously know as,

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Photo by: Kaylan Tran
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  4. ElectroPapi SAGE SUEDE 4:36
  5. Be my Boo SAGE SUEDE 3:02
  6. Un Photo De Toi Nu SAGE SUEDE 3:02
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