Why Your Astrological Sign Is Probably Wrong

I Have Read a Little Bit About Astrology, so I Thought I’d Share Some Magic

As an example, here is my natal chart. It has tidbits for anyone that is skilled in reading them. The outer rings are astrological signs and the inner symbols are the planets in each degree. There are also some sub-planets like Chiron, which represents deeply-rooted pain. I don’t want to go into excessive detail, but I will post about this again if people ask for it.

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Why Your Astrological Sign Is Probably Wrong

When it comes to astrology, there are a lot of different kinds of charts. I don’t believe in tropical astrology, because it was based on charting of the planets 2 millenia ago. Instead, I use sidereal astrology. I understand why some people prefer to go by tropical and that’s why I’ll explain how I felt about it when learning about sidereal. I didn’t understand that a different system might be more accurate in terms of the position of the planets and for me, the periodic influences of planets should be based on their real, astronomical position. Your astrological sign is like the reference point for how to interpret planetary influences as the planets travel through signs throughout the year.

You might even be considered Ophiuchus or, “the new 13th sign”. It’s not a new sign at all, actually and that’s not a bad thing. It’s because there are more than 12 signs in the sky, but the sun only travels through 13 signs. Ophiuchus was likely removed to round downand simplify math, or maybe because multiples of 3 are holy. I’m sure it was easier to make an astrological wheel with 12 signs too, since 360 is divisible by 12. There are ~365.242199 days in a year though, so things were bound to get funky.

The most popular form of astrology is tropical astrology. It’s so much more domineering that if you look up astrology that’s what you will find by default. When I first learned about it, I didn’t get it. I always thought I was an Aquarius and felt that the sign described me well. So anyways, I checked a real astronomical charting program and that’s when I saw that at the time of my birth, my sun was in Capricorn.

Learning more about Capricorn has shown me that I have a lot of those traits. I won’t go into detail but a lot of great musicians have been Capricorns, like Elvis. Here are some of the planetary symbols from NASA’s website:

How to Find Your Sidereal Astrological Sign

I recommend using your natal chart. I used this site to generate mine.

I know it’s a little hard to understand, but I can make some videos to help y’all with it. I think it’s important to understand which planets are in your home sign, so that you’ll know how the position of the planets is relative to your person. It’s kind of superstitious and up to interpretation, but I love foreign languages, magic, esotericism and spirituality so I include aspects of this in my music and want to share it with people, since it’s fun to learn about.

Important concepts to understand about your planets

1. You are ruled by the planets that are in your sign. In a general sense, that means that the characteristics of each planet may have some effect on you.
2. Your sign is determined by your sun sign.
3. The position of the planets changes as they orbit the sun and their influences change accordingly. This is on a case by case basis based on where and when you were born.
I don’t want to go into too much detail about astrology but leave a comment if you’re interested and I’ll help you learn more.

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This blog post talks a lot about magic. You can learn more about how to connect with planets in this video.

Magic Squares are just one method of connecting with planets and generally mantras are based on deities. You can choose your own mantra, deity or say the planets name directly.

This type of magic is primarily based on intention. The video below is based on the sun. The sign your sun is in determines your astrological sign at birth and it is the primary planet of wealth.

I read this in a book on dark magic, but it’s not dark. It is borrowed from Hindu traditions and you can re-frame it to your beliefs as appropriate. I am just talking about aligning with planets and recommend having a practice to align with all of the planets in your home sign.

Believe in Yourself When No One Else Will & You Will Succeed

I’ve been a musician for my entire life. No one has ever handed me a song on a silver platter with pre-recorded vocals and instrumental tracks.

How many albums were made this way in 2018?

I have been the only person working on Sage Suede, except for my collaborations. I actually only started modeling because I thought it would help me as a musician and it’s helped a bit with my online presence, but that hasn’t always been a part of my life. I like modeling, but as a child I thought it was too shallow to even consider it. I thought ageism reduced it’s viability greatly and didn’t live in a big city where gigs are. It became something that I did independently. I’ve organized many of my photoshoots with indie photographers and cut my hair in almost all of my photoshoots.

I just want y’all to know that I am really dedicated to what I’m doing and I know about most of the mistakes I’ve made along the way. I don’t think that those mistakes invalidate any of the music I’ve released online, even though I am always working towards perfection.

Releasing my music online has resulted in a lot of backlash for me, I’ve been even more isolated than I tend to be and it’s been stressful for me emotionally. Still, it’s what I love and I can’t imagine a life without it. I hope that someday I can make this my entire life, but for now, I’m still slaving away at work, before creating things in my free time. I love what I create and those imperfections are just where I was at in becoming the person I am today. I had to make mistakes to keep growing and I am still working towards my goals.

If you want to be something, then keep working towards it. No one can tell you that you’re wrong for following your heart.

Bird Girl

Another Song About a Previous Relationship

I wrote this about my first relationship in college. It’s about both being in a romantic relationship, as well as a strong, independent women. My ex was mentally strong and it is a quality that I admired about her. She wore bright red lipstick a lot and she was actually really cool. That’s why I say “an unifinished nest” because there is probably some iteration of reality, in which we did stay together. I felt a good connection with her and we had a positive relationship together.

She Liked France a Lot

She stopped showering for a while, just because it was something that she told me was typical of French culture. She said that they didn’t shower and they wore a lot of cologne. We were together for about half a year, but we broke up while we spent a summer apart. She went to France and I went to Brazil for a brief study abroad. We didn’t see each other after the month ended either, as we had to go home before the commencement of other classes. A few months apart is difficult for any relationship. Sometimes I wonder how I would have acted if I was more mature in that situation.

How That Relationship Ended

While I was in Brazil, I went to a bar called Al Capone’s with a bunch of friends. I met an attractive woman in a red corset and we really hit it off. I danced with her and then we made out for a while. We didn’t hook up or anything, but she left her business card in my pocket.

I didn’t feel bad about it and that’s how I knew I needed to end my relationship. I do not condone cheating and I am not about that life. When I didn’t feel bad about violating my relationship (in my opinion), I cut things off. It was out of consideration for my partner’s feelings, because I didn’t want to lead her on. I did miss her and we had a lot of good times together, but it just wasn’t the right relationship for me. Maybe it was just the timing and of course, being in different countries is a huge burden on any couple. I don’t think that I was entirely emotionally ready for a relationship at that point in time. I don’t regret it and I actually place a lot of value in her as a person.

Unfortunately, We Weren’t Able to Stay Friends

We tried to stay friends for a while, but we just weren’t ever able to communicate the same way again. At the end of college, we hung out a little bit with mutuals and we were able to be cool with each other. After college, we were able to catch up a little bit online but that’s where things left off. I’m glad that she was so positive and strong throughout that entire ordeal and I wish I could have been a better person for her. In a way, this song is me trying to immortalize what we used to have. Most relationships that start freshmen year of college are doomed to fail anyway.

What About the Red Corset Girl?

Umm, she put her business card in my pocket when she left. She was a wedding planner in Brazil and I didn’t call her while I was still there. Leaving a relationship was enough burden for me at that point and I wasn’t ready for another one. I used to wish that I had gotten to know her, but I was only in Brazil for one month so there wasn’t much hope. I thought about friending her on Facebook after returning to The U.S., but by then it didn’t seem worth it anymore. It would be cool, if we have a chance encounter some day but it’s highly unlikely.

Musical Composition of Bird Girl

I wrote this song on guitar, before I created the drum beat. This is one of the songs I made with ProTools, when I still had access to it on the Northeastern University library computers. I only use Ableton now, because ProTools is ridiculously expensive. I think that this song came together rather nicely and had a good cohesiveness to it. Lyrically, it has powerful metaphors that illustrate a really interesting scenario. The metaphors don’t exactly mirror the way our relationship was, but they have a raunchy feeling to them that captures the sensual energy of our relationship.

Bird Girl lyrics by Sage Suede


Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all the happiest dreams

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

like an unfinished nest
on a motel out west
not free to park
but with a fully stocked mini bar

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all close contact
I’ll like your ear
you’ll text back

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

spread your wings and fly high
with apathy that never dies

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

young love electrified

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

And now I’m left with nothing
but all this would be loving
just took a red corset
another’s lips and now I’m
lost again

Yes, I lick ears and that is usually a turn on for musicians lol. I didn’t train my cat to do that though.

New Recordings for DIAMONDBACK

Making Lots of Progress on DIAMONDBACK Demo

I’m starting to get a good track-list going and I expect to get DIAMONDBACK Demo out soon. There was recently a full moon in Leo this past weekend and I couldn’t agree more that I am in a better position to work towards my goals and assert myself, although I tend to be a bit shy. I read about astrology sometimes, although the most useful is probably current astronomical events and I may mention them in the blog, because it’s interesting to me.

Sage Suede is Inclusive of Diversity

I think it’s important that I establish the kind of person I am, because I want Sage Suede to be an inclusive musical act. Even when people have prejudices, I want them to understand that acceptance of diversity is a necessity at my concerts. I want to stand up for what’s right, whenever I see prejudice at my concerts and I hope that my fans will do so as well.

Maybe, Sometimes it’s a bit off-putting

I try to speak out and support progress within society. Usually I talk about this kind of thing on Twitter and honestly, in many ways this has been to my own detriment. I have lost fans while supporting various positive things within society, but I don’t regret that. I am not a politician, so I might not mention everything that it on my mind, but I still want my presence to make the world a better place. Although I try to speak out, I also don’t want to make myself a target, so if you ever see me remove something in retrospect, that’s probably why.

Just a Little Sage Magic

I also believe in magic. I guess that may be weird to a lot of people, but a good way to explain it to non-believers is in terms of that book The Secret. Basically, the book says that what you put out into the world is what you ultimately receive; that is essentially the same thing as pretty much every magical practice and religion (i.e. prayer). I research a lot of different spiritual belief systems and practices, because I find that stuff very interesting. As a result, you will also hear me mentioning magic and magic concepts within my songs. You don’t have to believe in any of it and I’m not starting a cult. I might make more videos about magical practices, but that doesn’t mean that I advocate for it either. Personally, I have seen how much magic impacts my life and I don’t have any doubt in my mind. I don’t really care what other people think about that, it’s just something that I probably won’t stop mentioning in my work.

Happy Valentinesday! I’m spending it alone with myself. #metime #selflove

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Songs Re-visited

So I returned to my alma mater, Northeastern University, recently for this recording session and recorded a few tracks. One of my friends reserved the studio for me, so that I could do so, even though I was an alumni – Thanks Jon! I am attaching these two songs to this post because it’s Valentinesday and I want some of the more romantic songs to be out there while all of us single people eat chocolate and maybe cry. If you have someone to lick your toes (for lack of a more interesting semi-erotic metaphor), then that’s great and I hope you enjoy your day too!

Sexy in That Sweater


You can also find the original here, but this version is better imo. It’s about a friend that used to wear sweaters all the time and we were always thrifting for sweaters. I kept thrifting for sweaters afterwards, because we were really close and she taught me about how great the tactile aspect of sweaters are. We were best friends for a long time and I miss that. You can learn more about this song here.

Lazy Sunday with You


You can find the video version of this song here. I didn’t have an audio version of this before, so I’m releasing one now. I mention auras in the song: supposedly babies, young kids, many animals and gurus can see them easily. It doesn’t come too easily to me, as I’ve always had an easier time feeling than seeing things. I’m not particularly oriented towards psychic vision. There’s even a wikihow article on it, if it interests you.

Anyways, I will try not to cause a hullabaloo by talking about magic too much. It is just a common subject of study for me and an influence that definitely plays a role in my songwriting. I’m trying to finish up DIAMONDBACK Demo soon and I hope that you’ll like it. It’s been a lifetime of hard work and experience that’s finally starting to come to fruition.

This Blog Post is NOT Art

A Little About Me

I was born during a record low snowstorm in Ohio. I don’t really remember living there, but I’ve seen photos. I was a Cesarean section because there was a risk of brain damage, if I jumped out wrong. I won’t go into all of that, but I had good timing. I was a big baby at 11 lbs 7 oz.
I went to a Catholic pre-school in Florida and there were cockroaches everywhere. I was later baptized and I have learned of many religions since then. I won’t go into the details but I enjoy reading about different belief systems. Later in my childhood, I moved to Texas where there were plagues of crickets. Luckily that ended in the early 2000s, because I was in swimming and it was disgusting. I had to do a few meets, swimming through pools of partially-live crickets.

I was that guy in elementary school that was taller than everyone else, so people always treated me like I was older. I’m like the big puppy dog that was always treated like an adult dog, so it didn’t grow up chihuahua. I also hated being a child, because I viciously prefer independence and still crave more freedom for my art. I did sports in elementary school but started band in middle school and I’ll get into that later…

If you want to know more about me you can always comment on any of my social media profiles, or posts on this site. I support people of all backgrounds and have always had best friends of both genders, from all over the world.

One of my best friends from middle school band striking a pose with me. She’s super successful now and I am so proud.
This is from instagram.com/sage_suede.

Random Life Notes

I have to make music, because otherwise there is no way for people to understand me. I loved languages as a kid. You learn the most about English when you learn a foreign language because you can see commonalities in sentence structure that clarify elements of grammar that generally aren’t explained in native language learning (although, I probably ignored them while learning English).

I devoted years of my life to learning several languages. I was fortunate to be in a public high school with AP classes, but had to work hard to get into college. Much of high school was harder than college for me because I did so much. I had 32 semester hours when I started on a half-tuition scholarship and changed my major 3 times, before graduating in 4 years.

I plan ahead, otherwise I get anxious and I planned ahead to become a musician as a child. I made that decision because I liked foreign music and I wanted a career that would allow me to travel. My first two albums were Deee-Lite’s Greatest Hits and Music by Madonna (side note: I asked Lady Miss Kier to collab and she was too busy, but as a huge fan, I was happy to have a brief chat via email with her).  When I was like 6, I started on drums (don’t play anymore though), then Clarinet in middle school, marched bass clarinet and shredded at classical bass clarinet, followed by guitar, ukulele and piano. For a while, I practiced clarinet for 5 hours a day.

Oh, and in middle school I started learning to make beats but was off-an-on until recently. I have devoted years of my life to this and did several jobs for free to learn to marketing and other skills, such as web design. This website and my music really are the product of blood, sweat and tears – often at my own expense.

No One Else Defines Me

Some people treated me like I was crazy for being different from them, but I primarily grew up in Austin, TX – a place where most people embrace weirdness. I have friends from everywhere and have had trouble fitting in for most of my life, because I am from many places and like foreign things. I don’t always think in one language and I want to make that painfully clear, because I don’t always speak in the same accent. You might find me using a different voice on different songs, but I am always trying to express myself genuinely.

I don’t think that’s weird at all and I don’t feel like I should have to justify it to anyone. I also don’t feel like my music should be limited to one mood, because I’m human and have emotions. I am a multi-dimensional person, as I have expressed in other posts, so I won’t let anyone look down on me on the basis of how different we are. I am a good role model, because I worked so hard to get where I’m at.

I’ve always had friends from diverse cultures and I used to practice Clarinet 5 hours a day, in addition to rehearsals. That number dropped of course, but I wanted to be a Clarinet major through much of high school. I chose to drop clarinet for guitar and piano, which I studied at Clancy’s Guitar School.

NOT Art

This post is not art because it’s just about me. I’m a person and it’s about time people realize that I’m not an object. I don’t want my childhood really to be the body of any of my art, but it still influences me a lot. I live in a pretty quiet apartment complex with a roommate, so with a 40-hour work week, I don’t have many hours to be loud. That’s one of the reasons a lot of my stuff has been electronic lately. Unfortunately, one of the main reasons I was so sad in earlier posts is because living with roommates so greatly limited my capacity for musical expression and some of those roommates were awful enough to attack me for practicing.

A lot of my songs are meant to provoke discussion, but others are just personal and reflective. I like keeping those reflective pieces on here and I don’t feel bad about anything that I’ve ever made, even when it isn’t high quality. I haven’t been performing my original music much and none of these songs are guaranteed to be final versions.Unfortunately, I am limited by financial resources and my student debt is spiraling out of control, so things are still up in the air, until I can make ends meet.

I’ve been living my life to become a musician and I made all of these plans and took these steps myself, one at a time down a very long path. I also took all of the steps towards a professional career and have to dedicate my time to making money, before working on this blog. Sage Suede would not exist right now, if I hadn’t worked for it and taken on a lot of roles to get here.


My Facebook page mostly has followers in Lusophone countries, so I am going to keep making Portuguese songs too.
I am very thankful for the love I receive in regards to my music. I want my fans to know how to handle tough situations, so I try to be edgy but it’s also just been my entire life adapting to new friendships and situations. I am enjoying the experience and progressing outside of music as well. 😉

Lazy Sunday with You

About The Song Lazy Sunday with You by Sage Suede

This song is about a romantic encounter with someone that you don’t know very well. I didn’t write it about one person and it’s mostly about that moment when you meet someone that you really like, but you aren’t sure if they like you back. It starts at that point and then progresses to a later part in a loving, comfortable relationship where two people can do nothing at all and be happy with each other’s love.

Sage Suede – Lazy Sunday with You


Lyrics Lazy Sunday with You:

Shaky Lips
Changing grips
Do you really like me?

Little said your compliments
make me feel in tune
fire read your aura said
let us unite tonight
hold me close and I’ll satiate your appetite

Never been a feel I wanna
read it back and say it louder
shut the door and light patchouli
your hands, you really knew me

You’re something that feels complete
The frothy waves
no editing

Shaky Lips
Changing grips
Do you really like me?

Little said your compliments
make me feel in tune
fire read your aura said
let us unite tonight
hold me close and I’ll satiate your appetite

Shaky Lips
Changing grips
Do you really like me?

Little said your compliments
make me feel in tune
fire read your aura said
let us unite tonight
hold me close and I’ll satiate your appetite

and if you feel discredited
know that you’re my everything
there’s always space for us to kiss
and do nothing at all


The birds liked it. Let me know if you did too in the comments! 

Sexy Scorpião

Sexy Scorpião by Sage Suede

This song is written for scorpios, because the sign does not have the best reputation (in some parts of the world), so I made this song to improve that. I’ve also had several relationships with scorpios and it’s generally agreed to be the sexiest zodiac sign by many. My tattoo has no relation to this song or the people I have dated and I got it before ever dating a scorpio. I got this tattoo, because as a kid I was stung by a scorpion on my foot. It is symbolic and represents both home and having overcome something that used to seem insurmountable to me. Scorpions are also seen as symbols of protection in many cultures and that is another reason I got this tattoo.

Sloppy translation of the above:
Ta canção é pra todo scorpião do mundo. Entendo que a reputação do o signo astrologico de scorpio nê muito bem, então criei deste pra a melhorar disso. Tb tenia mulitplas relacionamentos com scorpiões e na minha opinião ta um signo muito mais sexy do zodiaco.

Song Quality & Composition

I wrote this song quickly and I didn’t spend a lot of time on it. I recorded it on my iPhone one day while sitting in my bedroom. It isn’t the best song I have ever made and the quality of the guitar embarrasses me, but it expresses a lot of emotion that I felt personally at the time. I would consider re-making it, but maybe with all of the lyrics in Portuguese. It was just a fun side-project for me and it isn’t on any kind of album, or even my demo.

Why Do You Speak Portuguese?

I speak Portuguese, because I started college as an international business major. I chose Portuguese as my focus and eventually spent 1 month in Brazil for a language immersion. I still have a lot of friends there and a lot of them coincidentally work in concert promotion. Anyways, in a nutshell I took about 4 Portuguese classes. When I went to Brazil, I had only taken 2 and I took a 3rd while I was there. I was surprised to find that I was mostly fluent when I got there. I guess part of why my brain processed the language so well is because it is very close to Spanish (often only a letter or two off) and my mom was one of the volunteer Spanish teachers at my elementary school. My grandfather was stationed on a military base in Panama, so my mom learned Spanish while she was a kid. Anyways, I also speak a few other languages and I am a polyglot. It’s something that I want to incorporate in my music, because I have always been passionate about learning other languages, often through self-study.

Letras de Sexy Scorpião por Sage Suede

You’re my sexy scorpião
tudo cê fiz é gostosão
não vale a pena que
a gente fala sobre mim

You’re my sexy scorpião
bixas festejando loud
caipirinha ou vodka no mão
a vida beleza no festival

muitas saudades this
was my longest shtick
I hope that we get rich
quero tocar vc again

vc não bebe wine
I know we’ll be just fine
mozi não teve frio
quero de dar novo beijinho

You’re my sexy scorpião
tudo cê fiz é gostosão
não vale a pena que
a gente fala sobre mim

You’re my sexy scorpião
bixas festejando loud
caipirinha ou vodka no mão
a vida beleza no festival

I’m wishing you the best
ainda tem sua cuecas
fica pertinho
life’s too short to waste time

in scorpion eyes
you see a deeper side
espero que vc é
com paz, tudo cê quer

You’re my sexy scorpião
tudo cê fiz é gostosão
não vale a pena que
a gente fala sobre mim

You’re my sexy scorpião
bixas festejando loud
caipirinha ou vodka no mão
a vida beleza no festival

Este cancão fui um projeito muy divertido para me. Espero que vocês gostam dela engracada criacão.
This song was a very fun project for me. I hope that y’all enjoy this funny creation.

Gonna Miss These Kids

About The Song – Gonna Miss These Kids by Sage Suede

This song is about my childhood, specifically what high school parties were like. I don’t go into much detail, but I had a lot of cool friends and this song is me reminiscing. At the end of the song I talk about history. The first party my friends and I organized, we were writing hundreds of flashcards for AP U.S. History, then we decided to throw a party. I still have a lot of love for the people I know back home (including other friends outside of this group of friends) and I still keep in contact with many of them. We have the kind of friendships where if we don’t talk, then things are still pretty much the same the next time we hangout.

Basically, We Were Cool Nerds

It’s funny because the group of friends I partied with the most were all really smart. We all worked really hard, were in advanced, college-level classes and participated in after school activities. None of us really cared about popular kids; Like they were okay, we weren’t mean to them or anything, but they were just shallow and not very interesting. We never cared about being popular because we were already cool on our own time. You could maybe say that we were living double lives, working hard and staying on top of things during the day, but at night, we’d have these awesome house parties that no one ever knew about. So I wrote this song to commemorate our great times.

I can’t speak for all my friends but overall we were just happy to spend time with each other and it had nothing to do with what other people thought about us. I guess that’s why we had so much fun and became so close in the process. We still hangout sometimes, just not as often as we used to. I’ve moved a few times, so I have actually been the most distant.

I Grew Up In Austin, Texas and It Is Pretty Cool

I just wanted to share a little bit about this one hidden aspect of what high school was like for me. I was always busy and worked really hard, but I played hard with my friends and that’s what this song is about. A lot of people party hard in Texas and honestly, it’s one of the coolest states regardless of all the pathetic stereotypes that make us sound like were in the 1800s riding horses to class, lol. I am thinking about making a video with them next time we are able to get together again, but who knows. I tried to direct a movie with a script I wrote once, but no one felt like putting in effort.

Lessons Learned From Partying Too Hard

Sometimes we did drink way too much. We were always there for each other though and did our best to keep everyone safe. When you invite new people over to parties, they are wild cards so you have to be sure they won’t do something crazy or reckless too.

I had a high GPA but I was wait-listed at Princeton. I think it’s mostly because I knew next to nothing about the school and the only thing I asked about during the interview was eating clubs, but it could have also been related to small moments that I didn’t work hard, because I was out drinking. I don’t actually care at all, but sometimes I wonder if I would have had more opportunities, if I had studied just a little bit harder. I was at the top of my class, so it wouldn’t have been that much more effort.

I Didn’t Want This To Be A Pop Song

My music is personal, although I share it with others and I am more introspective than this song about partying would have you believe. I have a lot more to offer than just a party anthem and that’s why this is not written in a conventional pop style. I want to make my fans more successful by discussing things of substance, because in turn they can help me out. That’s probably why I started a magic series on YouTube a few years later, but I’m re-evaluating if that is actually helping me to reach my goals.

Sage Suede – Gonna Miss These Kids


Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time
——
If we ever wrote a book
It would be off the hook
It would sell off the shelves
Cause we partied next level

Skinny dipping
Bar tending
Smoke building
Texas shit
Not those other states
wishing that they could handle it

High school
The Party nights
I’m just being forthright
We were nerds, we did fine
Yet we went hard
double lives

Never turned down
Another round
Girls were going
Pound for pound
Chillin with my favorite crew
We didn’t need to prove our cool
——
Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time

New Years was always huge
Always had a big crew
House parties ’til numb
Pool and a hot tub

Started with history
We wrote flash cards all day
Had a house to get drunk
dedicate then go hard

I still reminisce
no regrets

————————————-
I had really low self esteem until the end of high school and was really nerdy in middle school. People liked me for being genuine and for treating them respectfully. It was never about being the prettiest, or a jock, or whatever, although, it’s cool to have fun past times like that too, if that’s your thing. You don’t need to party either, that’s just what we did. In the end, what was most valuable was what we learned and the memories we still share.

idc

This song helps release negativity

When I first write things, it is generally about me and my feelings, so this is the same way, but edited to make more sense for a general audience. Repeating the words in this song is intended to release negativity. By the end of the song, you’ll be really apathetic and over the stress.

idc Music Video

For the music video, I met with Cal and he acted as my camera guy. He was really easy to work with and tells me he also does house music, so we plan to collaborate more in the future.

I made a wand for the video. I accidentally cut myself in the process, so I had a band aid on for a while. I saw this style of wand in an old magic book originally.
I chose the locations for the video the night before. I was holding a red skull shaker in the opening scene, but I don’t think you can see it in the shot. Oh well, whatever.

So we filmed at the Commons. It was a bit cold, but we managed to do it. The pidgeons made the shot more interesting since my movement was minimal and I tried to be as apathetic and half-there as possible. My dancing is really apathetic, especially at that one point I have my coat in my arms and I put my hands up, before just losing the will to dance. I made sure that my apathy came through in all aspects of the video. I modeled apathetically and didn’t even think of the video concept until 3am the day before.

Sage Suede – idc

I don’t care and
I don’t care and
I don’t care about you
I i idc
dc a u X4

Over all the harrowing
I’m the one they’re following
Looking mighty puritan
like to see you happy again

Lose the baggage
don’t need your stress
Not on my roster
stay off my list

keep talking sh*t
I’ll see you
another day, still looking it
keep being mad
Just wasted another day on feeling bad

I’m creating culture
You’re acting like a vulture
Ooh, does it sting
that I’m interesting?

I don’t care and
I don’t care and
I don’t care about you
I i idc
dc a u X4

(Clap)
Little finches want attention
Losers looking for a scapegoat
Dark witches use deception
Don’t waste my time
on trepidation X2

I don’t care and
I don’t care and
I don’t care about you
I i idc
dc a u X4

Over all the harrowing
I’m the one they’re following
It takes a lot of work but
I know that I’ll be heard

Little finches want attention
Losers looking for a scapegoat
Dark witches use deception
Don’t waste my time
to throw a fit
—-
Get out of my space
& find your desperate place
Get out of my space
& get your head on straight

Not your turn to shag it
Have some self respect

If you have a personal problem
Then you should try to fix it
idc
—–.
I said idc 60 times in this song.
If you repeat the lyrics, it can help release unwanted emotion.

Fort Point Open Mic Night

fort point open mic night sage suede

Fort Point Open Mic Night

I finished editing an acoustic performance from Fort Point Open Mic Night at Internal Matter. The editing isn’t particularly good, because well, there isn’t much you can do about low quality video. I was having issues with the MTS file format but I found a workaround.

Performance at Internal Matter

I enjoyed playing at Internal Matter and would love to play there again. Unfortunately, this bar isn’t around anymore. I had to leave after performing and eating, because I had a final exam the next day and I needed to study. I wish I’d had more time to talk with the cool artists and locals in attendance. People seemed genuinely interested in meeting me and I should have stuck around. Nonetheless, I enjoyed playing at Internal Matter and am hoping to play more open mics in Boston when I finish DIAMONDBACK Demo.

I Used To Work in Fort Point

I was particularly happy about being a part of Fort Point Open Mic Night, because I used to work for a small business in the area and was personally involved in helping to market and grow the community. It’s a little too expensive for me to move there, but I really liked the environment. I have met more than a few of the business owners in the area and they were all very kind. I even went to business meetings at the Boston Tea Party Museum and Menton, which were both really cool. I miss that internship a lot, actually. I learned a lot about building websites and many of the skills that aided me in creating this blog.

Lindsay was especially helpful as hostess and an organizer for the event. You can find more about her work on her website baernaeked.com (I am not sure if this site exists anymore, because I’m getting a DNS error). I was also excited to see the video was re-posted by The Fort Pointer. Kind of a random thing if you don’t know who that is, but they are probably the most famous person in Fort Point.

Changes to the Songs in this Performance

Mob Mentality

I made improvements to the first song, which I was going to call Mob Mentality so it will sound different in newer versions. This is just because of some of the unintended connotations of a few metaphors and other improvements, based on further revision. I don’t think I have another recording of that song yet.

Just Got Tipsy

I partially wrote Just Got Tipsy, because I knew I would be singing while people were drinking, although it also vaguely describes my life in Boston and materialism. I only changed the final phrase in this song. Just Got Tipsy is also a track on 2018 Freebies & Bangers.

Sexy in that Sweater

I recorded Sexy in that Sweater as it is performed here. Didn’t actually make many changes to this, except for the vocal effects I used on some versions of the song.

Lazy Sunday with You (Shaky Lips)

The last song I performed was Lazy Sunday with You, although the recording was cut short so you won’t hear it in this video. A little weird without the finality of this set, but you can find that song elsewhere on the site now. Disappointing, because that was also the most well-received song in the set and it got a lot of applause.

Quality Doesn’t Phase Me

I recorded this performance and wish the audio could have been a little better, but I still enjoyed it a lot. The quality doesn’t stop it from being enjoyable and I hope that my real fans will still take some time to give it a listen. I know it’s hard to hear me, since this was recorded with a camcorder, and an iphone when the camcorder died on the last track. In the future, I want to pick up audio near the stage. This was my first live performance of my original material, so it was important to me.

As a random tidbit, I got a skateboard shortly after this show from a cool brand called One Gig and carried that around town. They were really nice and I like their design, so I definitely recommend them. At the time, I had still only played one gig and I think it’s cool that it says that on my board.

Update: I also modeled for One Gig soon after. Find it on my modeling portfolio.

Sexy in That Sweater

Sage Suede - Sexy in That Sweater

I’m Just Getting Started:

I recorded Sexy in That Sweater a few months ago and posted the video on YouTube. I received a few requests for airplay by radio stations through YouTube, but idk how genuine those were. One of them was in Italy, I think… Anyways, It’s been a difficult process establishing this site and music, but I still have a lot to learn about music promotion before anyone will really hear what I have made.

Today, I revisited the song Sexy in that Sweater and made a lot of improvements. The version from DIAMONDBACK Demo is below, followed by the lyrics and the first video version. If you think it’s cool, let me know and I’ll head further in this direction for the future.

The Meaning Behind Sexy in that Sweater:

This song is about one of my best friends in high school. She is very intelligent and we had a lot of deep conversations together. When I talk about the sweater, it’s because she loves sweaters and it’s also a metaphor because the mental side of her was so beautiful, that we didn’t need that physical side. I know it may sound a little odd and some douchey guy will probably say something half-minded about my interest in women, but that isn’t why I wrote this. She is beautiful and there may have been some of that physicality, but I wrote this out of genuine appreciation for someone special to me. She loves sweaters, so that was metaphorically the best way for me to show that appreciation for her in words. I want to think that wherever she is today, she is wearing a sweater and enjoying being in that sweater. She got me into sweaters too tbh, we thrifted for them at Goodwill all the time.

When I talk about being empty and hurt in the lyrics, that is more about me and the place I was at when I wrote the song. I don’t even feel like that was the place I was at, when I knew her better. She is such a cool person and I never did anything to make her that way. We weren’t able to stay friends due to unusual circumstances, but if she ever finds this some day, I want her to know that I will always cherish the time we spent together. I may talk about my hurt in this song, but that is because I miss what we used to share. I’m sure she is even cooler now, than she was when I knew her. Who knows? Maybe some day we will be cool again.

Sage Suede – Sexy in that Sweater:

You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.
—-
close the blinds, the dreamy lights
convoluted things tonight
say a prayer, I want you here
but I’m not ready for a fight

shut me up, I never knew
how to be whole for you
we were both empty vessels
.. and we’re still empty
—-
You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.
—-
dead living, I’m so stuck
a haunted groom, made to be cellar dweller
shut out by all the fools
we could’ve made failure out of their cruel rules
but now we’re living on the tightrope
and I’m trip tripped up over you
somehow I still shudder
It’s not my brain or the shame
It’s my memories of you
—-
You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.

Sage Suede – Sexy in That Sweater (older video version)

Note: I cut out a verse since the YouTube video and play it a lot faster now… Anyways, it’s gonna be on DIAMONDBACK Demo soon. Thanks for visiting! 😀

  1. 01 - Bird Girl 2:51
  2. 02 - Cleopatra (snake queen) 2:34
  3. 03 - How Can I 2:23
  4. 04 - Un Photo De Toi Nu 3:02
  5. 05 - Sexy in that Sweater 2:22
  6. 06 - Lazy Sunday with You (Shaky Lips) 2:03
  7. 07 - It's Alright (Fall in Love Again) 3:53
  8. 08 - Uh Huh 2:48
  9. 09 - Bring my Diamondback 3:39