Bird Girl

Another Song About a Previous Relationship

I wrote this about my first relationship in college. It’s about both being in a romantic relationship, as well as a strong, independent women. My ex was mentally strong and it is a quality that I admired about her. She wore bright red lipstick a lot and she was actually really cool. That’s why I say “an unifinished nest” because there is probably some iteration of reality, in which we did stay together. I felt a good connection with her and we had a positive relationship together.

She Liked France a Lot

She stopped showering for a while, just because it was something that she told me was typical of French culture. She said that they didn’t shower and they wore a lot of cologne. We were together for about half a year, but we broke up while we spent a summer apart. She went to France and I went to Brazil for a brief study abroad. We didn’t see each other after the month ended either, as we had to go home before the commencement of other classes. A few months apart is difficult for any relationship. Sometimes I wonder how I would have acted if I was more mature in that situation.

How That Relationship Ended

While I was in Brazil, I went to a bar called Al Capone’s with a bunch of friends. I met an attractive woman in a red corset and we really hit it off. I danced with her and then we made out for a while. We didn’t hook up or anything, but she left her business card in my pocket.

I didn’t feel bad about it and that’s how I knew I needed to end my relationship. I do not condone cheating and I am not about that life. When I didn’t feel bad about violating my relationship (in my opinion), I cut things off. It was out of consideration for my partner’s feelings, because I didn’t want to lead her on. I did miss her and we had a lot of good times together, but it just wasn’t the right relationship for me. Maybe it was just the timing and of course, being in different countries is a huge burden on any couple. I don’t think that I was entirely emotionally ready for a relationship at that point in time. I don’t regret it and I actually place a lot of value in her as a person.

Unfortunately, We Weren’t Able to Stay Friends

We tried to stay friends for a while, but we just weren’t ever able to communicate the same way again. At the end of college, we hung out a little bit with mutuals and we were able to be cool with each other. After college, we were able to catch up a little bit online but that’s where things left off. I’m glad that she was so positive and strong throughout that entire ordeal and I wish I could have been a better person for her. In a way, this song is me trying to immortalize what we used to have. Most relationships that start freshmen year of college are doomed to fail anyway.

What About the Red Corset Girl?

Umm, she put her business card in my pocket when she left. She was a wedding planner in Brazil and I didn’t call her while I was still there. Leaving a relationship was enough burden for me at that point and I wasn’t ready for another one. I used to wish that I had gotten to know her, but I was only in Brazil for one month so there wasn’t much hope. I thought about friending her on Facebook after returning to The U.S., but by then it didn’t seem worth it anymore. It would be cool, if we have a chance encounter some day but it’s highly unlikely.

Musical Composition of Bird Girl

I wrote this song on guitar, before I created the drum beat. This is one of the songs I made with ProTools, when I still had access to it on the Northeastern University library computers. I only use Ableton now, because ProTools is ridiculously expensive. I think that this song came together rather nicely and had a good cohesiveness to it. Lyrically, it has powerful metaphors that illustrate a really interesting scenario. The metaphors don’t exactly mirror the way our relationship was, but they have a raunchy feeling to them that captures the sensual energy of our relationship.

Bird Girl lyrics by Sage Suede


Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all the happiest dreams

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

like an unfinished nest
on a motel out west
not free to park
but with a fully stocked mini bar

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

all close contact
I’ll like your ear
you’ll text back

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

it might’ve been
it could’ve been
it should’ve been
it would’ve been

spread your wings and fly high
with apathy that never dies

it had to be
it couldn’t be
it was an incomplete masterpiece

young love electrified

Bird Girl
you liked to be stern
always had a sweater on
you let things unfurl

Bird Girl
you rarely had makeup on
if you did was red lipstick
with dark eyes said I’m #1

Bird Girl
you didn’t need to shower
if you did, I’d probably join you
and we’d stay there for an hour like a
full moon
rise a sensual tide
water between her thighs
and the shower curtain fell again

And now I’m left with nothing
but all this would be loving
just took a red corset
another’s lips and now I’m
lost again

Yes, I lick ears and that is usually a turn on for musicians lol. I didn’t train my cat to do that though.

Demons Want Cash Flow

An Understatement: I Was Not Happy When I Wrote This

There are a lot of 7s in today’s date so what better time to talk about this song. If you read the lyrics or listen to this song at all, then you would know that it has nothing to do with demonology, or the study of demons. If anything, it’s about demons within others trying to oppress your spirit and possibly, even intending to physically destroy you.

Around the time I wrote this song, I met some people that tried to ruin my life. In a nutshell, they tried to destroy everything about me. I don’t plan to perform this song, but I included it on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so that people would know that I was coming from a breaking point. I had to overcome these demonic people and luckily, I won, or I would essentially be dead right now.

I Still Feel Shy & Depressed

I struggled with a lot of depression and anxiety during the past few years. I’m still shy, so it’s taken a lot of practice for me to branch out and become a performer. I am only a bit extroverted to begin with and I’m skilled at marketing and social media, but I don’t crave attention in social settings.

I used to be so shy that I would choke anytime I auditioned for a theatrical role, or did a clarinet competition. I’ve been doing different kinds of performances throughout my life that have led me to be more confident and outgoing, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have struggled with depression. Most of my poetry from my younger years is too sad to share, as were most of my songs when I started sharing music online. You’ll definitely see that in the first few posts on this site. You can also find some of this poetry on SageSuede.Tumblr.com.

Overcoming Difficulties Makes You Stronger

I felt like it was important to share this song on DIAMONDBACK demo, because it shows a little more about negative experiences that helped to shape me into the person I am today. I don’t want to align myself with these feelings, which is why I don’t plan to perform this song (unless people really like it, it has a few likes on soundcloud). These feelings are still a part of who I am, but I actively choose to be happy because it’s better for me. I am trying my best to keep my aura clear and to focus on positive materialization.

Others Will Try to Drag You Down

I want my fans to hear this song, because I have encountered a lot of people in my life that make the self-centered assumption that I am overly-confident, or that I “need to be more grounded in reality.” Some of them will attack us just for acting happy, because they think that our happiness is a sign that we don’t feel sad. That couldn’t be further from the truth. I act happy for the people around me, not for myself. I project happiness outward, so that I will receive it in return. It has nothing to do with how I feel.

Some People Try to Tell Me That I’m “Not Even a Musician, or a Model”

They want to discourage me and tell me that my pursuits in music are futile, by comparing me to the most popular musicians and models in all of human history… That scale is absurd and it’s sad how some people act when they get the internet in front of them. I am a musician and a model, because I have the proof online. It’s what I do, not what they say and I am mostly talking about this now for the benefit of y’all – the readers. Don’t take it to heart if people say that you aren’t successful based on some absurd large scale person that is one of the most famous people of all time. That’s comical, if anything and it doesn’t make any sense.

About The Song Demons Want Cash Flow

This song is not about businessman. I am technically a businessman by profession, so I obviously don’t want to demonize everyone with a cash flow statement lol. I am still an artist in my free time and I am working towards making this my only job.

One Vocal, Acoustic Take

I recorded this song in one take and I didn’t do much editing at all, except for EQ. It is more conceptual, than professionally made and is about my feelings at the time. It is neither reflective of my overall abilities to make audio edits, nor my vocal talent; I didn’t use any comping, which is the industry standard nowadays. Comping is when you take the best vocal clips from various takes and put it together to make the highest possible quality vocal track. I did almost no comping at all on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so my takes are better than people would assume.

This Song Features Many Lyrics About My Inner Struggles

You could call them personal demons as well, but many of these inner struggles were forced upon me by others. I have grown to overcome them, in ways that I never expected and I am thankful to have made it through this very difficult period in my life.

There is a lyric about “my dying drones.” It is in terms of the fact that we are always getting closer to death and most all entertainment industries are youth-centric; that means that it is harder and harder to simply be a part of music or modeling as I age, even though these are things I love to do. I’m not going to give up, just because mediocre young artists will get more attention, simply based on their ability to pull young kids into their fan-base. I’ve been through too much to let others affect the outcome of my life and I am doing this all independently, so it’s up to me to make it happen. None of this would exist right now if I hadn’t worked for it throughout my entire life and it will continue growing, because I won’t give up.

If You Work Hard, You Will Succeed.

No one can tell you that you aren’t capable of something, when you are doing it. Believe in the things that you work hard at, because they are things that you have already achieved. People can try to talk you down, but words can only have so much influence. If you keep working, you will get to where you are going and there’s no reason to ever feel bad because there are people that are more famous than you. It’s sad that artists are constantly being pitted against each other like it’s some kind of Roman circus.

Why is Sage Suede Not More Famous?

I have a lot of student debt. I’m not a trust fund baby that can just buy everything they want. I had to work hard to get into a good college on several scholarships and I got jobs directly out of college through 2 internships and 2 co-ops that I completed during classes.

I wrote DIAMONDBACK Demo While Studying and/or Working Full-Time.

I don’t regret my decision to get an education, because otherwise everything would have fallen apart. I needed to have money to be capable of doing anything and as much as I would love to make Sage Suede my entire life, I had to prioritize the cold hard reality that I need money to survive. I am getting closer to my goals, but since I can’t afford to pay other people to make my dreams a reality, I am still trucking forward on my own. I am very happy for all of my collaborators however. For more collaboratons, check out my videos!

 

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Silly #Halloweencostume

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On a random note, I was the Devil last Halloween, because my friend had a free costume in their attic. If you make up any conspiracy theories about that I will laugh, because I just told you why I wore it. I didn’t have any money for a costume at the time and it was just for fun, not to summon some kind of entity.

Sage Suede – The Demons Want Cash Flow


my name
is not fool again
my heart
is not torn apart
my hands
are not slippery
but you can pass smooth
through my fingers

years of clingers
and the social feelers
and the club rat climb
not getting higher
I feel so tired
lost all desire
and some has been wants
to shout until I’m breathless soft

I’m green
suede leather delighter
I’ll make
a light bastion
or it all comes
crashing down

I don’t need the sound
of meddlers in my
dying drones
I’ll wait
until the cake comes to me

I wilt
under the flickering
pires of ire
I’ll fake
that I’m so bougee
but my money is like loose leaf

sometimes I wish
I wasn’t weird
but I won’t disappear

I know
I’m not slow
although the demons want cash flow

their business is built on my pain anyway

I’m happier
when I can think
I won’t let you make me weak

You may have a toxic ploy
but you can’t
use me like a toy

I’ll turn the tide
I’ll strike you down…
into the ground


Let me know what you think in the comments and I’ll create more soon!

Scum of Yesterday

I Was Pretty Angry When I Wrote This

This song is about being independent of anger that has come about from negativity. We all have things that happen in our lives that we have to deal with and this song is oriented with dismissing that negativity. I use the word scum, because it’s something on the hull of a ship that just gets scraped off. Sort of like how you shrug your shoulders, or you dust off the haters – it’s the same idea behind the terminology.

Lessons Learned From This Song

I write a lot of poetry when I feel emotional and so many of the tracks on my demo started out this way. I didn’t realize until after the fact that these emotions don’t necessarily pan out that well for the listener. I used to desire independence from other people’s constructs of me so much, that I didn’t take any real consideration for the listener. This song isn’t too overpowering in terms of the emotions, because it’s written to sound pretty happy regardless. When I say “let it lay with the scum of yesterday,” that’s the same as just letting things go. It should help to overcome anger with a situation, should you choose to repeat the words.

Why Were You So Angry?

I first wrote this track about a coworker that stole my work and then said awful things about me to HR. She had her friend come in and bully me, even though they had nothing to go off of. It was blatant stealing and then she wanted to just slap her work on an article of more than 500 words that I wrote entirely by myself. She didn’t even write any of it, she was purely the editor and she wanted to credit herself because it was about PR. It was really messed up and she went on being giggly and selfish afterwards, with absolutely no recognition of what she had done. After I wrote this song, it really helped me to dismiss those feelings and I’m happy with the way this song turned out. At least I made something good out of that mess of an ordeal.

A Little About Hoodoo and Magic

This video was made independently be me. I know it’s kind of creepy, but that was sort of the point and I made it in the middle of the night.

There is a hoodoo ritual where you break an egg at a crossroads and then you walk away. I broke the egg in this video and sped up the frame rate during the walk over there. This isn’t any kind of curse and you do this when you want to dismiss negativity. Usually before doing so you give the egg your bad energy and it is to deflect negativity (or curses) that are directed at you. At the end of the video, I’m just kind of waving around thorns. Thorns are also consider to be symbolic of protection and they can be laid over doorways or windowsills to keep out negative energy. There is also an owl in the video, which is protective too and fits nicely with the other imagery.

I tagged this post as magic, because of it’s associations with these concepts. I do not advocate any form of cursing, because it will usually come back to you in full force. People have a bad tendency to label and judge others in a way that can often be negative and this is energy that eventually travels back to you. I am aware of dark magic, but primarily so that I can protect myself. If you’ve read what some people say about the music industry online, you will understand why there is a need to be concerned. In this video, it is conceptual and there’s no need to read into it in too much depth. I think that this concept was a little too spooky for most people, but it was a fun FOIL (literary term) to the positive energy of the song.

Scum of Yesterday by Sage Suede


I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels
but I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed no
when you get pestilent
you can curse and scoff
but you won’t look so soft
reality will hit you harsher

You can berate
go and manipulate
but I won’t take part
in your
deceptive arts

Hey, no way
it’s not right to hate so clueless
let you know now
better to make a dream
than bring to ruin

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels but
I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

No one listens to
your hate chatter
your anti-matter

I hope you like this song! Your support means a lot to me.

O Pirata Digital

I wanted to write a song about pirates

…because I have a costume from Halloween a few years ago. I already came up with a cool video concept for this and am speaking with friends to try and find two cast members and a video person. I still have this concept in my head now, but unfortunately, I can’t materialize it as easily as I would have liked to.

I Don’t Advocate Breaking The Law

This was mostly written for my fans in Angola & Mozambique, who are the majority of my Facebook fans. I am not in any way advocating piracy in this song- it is just an interesting concept within a song, as well as an important historical occurrence. Within the context of a more European or American mindset, it makes more sense to discuss pirates in terms of digital piracy, thus the name.

When I said “bebendo na rua”, I was thinking about when I used to go to street festivals in Brazil. I learned Portuguese at Northeastern University and also took a class in Belo Horizonte. I became fluent during my brief time in Brazil, where I met a lot of great people there and I really miss it. I am more than happy to have followers in other Portuguese-speaking countries as well, because I have heard some bands from there and they have cool stuff.

I Didn’t Write This Song With a Lame Filter

This song isn’t particularly offensive to anyone, but it also wasn’t written with a filter. I didn’t even stick to one language really. It was mostly written in Portuguese and eventually, I created a version that was fully in English. The Digital Pirate (the English version) is on DIAMONDBACK Demo and it is one of my favorite tracks from the piece. It is mostly about having fun and although it is titled digital pirate, it doesn’t have much of anything to do with digital piracy. Now that I think about it, this song is completely random and people must think I’m so weird. That doesn’t bother me, but I would like to make something that communicates better with people in the future. This song is composed of poetic musings in multiple languages.

Sage Suede – O Pirata Digital:

You can also find the English version of this song on soundcloud and the homepage of this site.

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

I love your little quirks
I’ll calm the babbling birds
I wanna see you slay
money each and every day

Still haven’t explained
I’ll be on the winning team
want to have me on your side
I’m already on your mind

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

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Sexy in That Sweater

Sage Suede - Sexy in That Sweater

I’m Just Getting Started:

I recorded Sexy in That Sweater a few months ago and posted the video on YouTube. I received a few requests for airplay by radio stations through YouTube, but idk how genuine those were. One of them was in Italy, I think… Anyways, It’s been a difficult process establishing this site and music, but I still have a lot to learn about music promotion before anyone will really hear what I have made.

Today, I revisited the song Sexy in that Sweater and made a lot of improvements. The version from DIAMONDBACK Demo is below, followed by the lyrics and the first video version. If you think it’s cool, let me know and I’ll head further in this direction for the future.

The Meaning Behind Sexy in that Sweater:

This song is about one of my best friends in high school. She is very intelligent and we had a lot of deep conversations together. When I talk about the sweater, it’s because she loves sweaters and it’s also a metaphor because the mental side of her was so beautiful, that we didn’t need that physical side. I know it may sound a little odd and some douchey guy will probably say something half-minded about my interest in women, but that isn’t why I wrote this. She is beautiful and there may have been some of that physicality, but I wrote this out of genuine appreciation for someone special to me. She loves sweaters, so that was metaphorically the best way for me to show that appreciation for her in words. I want to think that wherever she is today, she is wearing a sweater and enjoying being in that sweater. She got me into sweaters too tbh, we thrifted for them at Goodwill all the time.

When I talk about being empty and hurt in the lyrics, that is more about me and the place I was at when I wrote the song. I don’t even feel like that was the place I was at, when I knew her better. She is such a cool person and I never did anything to make her that way. We weren’t able to stay friends due to unusual circumstances, but if she ever finds this some day, I want her to know that I will always cherish the time we spent together. I may talk about my hurt in this song, but that is because I miss what we used to share. I’m sure she is even cooler now, than she was when I knew her. Who knows? Maybe some day we will be cool again.

Sage Suede – Sexy in that Sweater:

You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.
—-
close the blinds, the dreamy lights
convoluted things tonight
say a prayer, I want you here
but I’m not ready for a fight

shut me up, I never knew
how to be whole for you
we were both empty vessels
.. and we’re still empty
—-
You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.
—-
dead living, I’m so stuck
a haunted groom, made to be cellar dweller
shut out by all the fools
we could’ve made failure out of their cruel rules
but now we’re living on the tightrope
and I’m trip tripped up over you
somehow I still shudder
It’s not my brain or the shame
It’s my memories of you
—-
You look sexy in that sweater
I can’t bear to think how better
you made me feel such pleasure
now never take it off
please don’t take it off

we were made to be together
but we both got tanned to leather
I’m still pushing out the tannins
I’m freshly squeezed for you
but we can’t be cool.

Sage Suede – Sexy in That Sweater (older video version)

Note: I cut out a verse since the YouTube video and play it a lot faster now… Anyways, it’s gonna be on DIAMONDBACK Demo soon. Thanks for visiting! 😀

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  2. On Your Lips SAGE SUEDE 3:59
  3. Short Skirt SAGE SUEDE 3:06
  4. ElectroPapi SAGE SUEDE 4:36
  5. Be my Boo SAGE SUEDE 3:02
  6. Un Photo De Toi Nu SAGE SUEDE 3:02
  7. Lazy Sunday with You (Shaky Lips) SAGE SUEDE 2:03
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