Soft Serve Chillin Music Video

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New Music Video: Soft Serve Chillin

I created this music video with Travis Ward on camera and everyone’s fav belly dancer, Devin Alfather. The concept was created by me, in order to be fun, sensual and combat serious societal issues. As an egalitarian, I chose to use a storied metaphor to create discussion around societal issues, such as bisexual visibility, sexual discrimination and gender roles. Sexual discrimination causes queers to be treated as inhuman and this is represented symbolically through my transformation into a cat. This can also be interpreted as a transference of gender roles.

This video is not meant to be illuminati or whatever. We recorded some scenes with a cage and a red X, but that was for the visual range of color and to provide an intriguing ending, in order to provoke thought. The song lyrics are spiritually uplifting and about romance. We filmed most of the outro scenes at a popular club in Austin and their dungeon seemed appropriate for the ending. We also visited Amy’s ice cream, did a sexy photoshoot sequence and danced at the club. You’ll even see my cats in the video :).

It has over 13k views already – check it out!

Sage Suede – Soft Serve Chillin Lyrics

When we’re done with kissin
I’m just here to listen
wanna stroke your hair
and treat you like my kitten

Wanna spoon with me
wanna feel me rhthm
with my arms around you
soft serve chillin

when we’re done with kissin
I’m just here to listen
wanna lose the time
with you in heaven

come dance with me
and feel the passion
stretched on the beat with the waves crashin

aight

you want me to be your boyfriend
we can talk in tongues
when we feel the love

I’m swervin onto your block
to take you out
my mission

ain’t no other
that I’ll be kissin
my mission
I seen it in a vision

(Gotta gotta love you like)x2
no other has been given))x2

My mission
I’ve seen you in a vision
the mood feels right
I’ll be your guy
deep feelin
my realest

The mood feels right
I’ll be your guy
deep feelin
my realest

When we’re done with kissin
I’m just here to listen
wanna stroke your hair
and treat you like my kitten

Wanna spoon with me
wanna feel me rhthm
with my arms around you
soft serve chillin

when we’re done with kissin
I’m just here to listen
wanna lose the time
with you in heaven

come dance with me
and feel the passion
stretched on the beat with the waves crashin

ahh yeah you bring me so much passion
(Gotta gotta love you like)x2
no other has been given))x2

Deep feelin
my realest

“I chose to reverse gender roles, with the transference of the ears and some of my outfits. Although the beginning of the video starts as a campy romance, the ending is symbolic of homophobia. There are also conceptual elements regarding patriarchy. Sexual discrimination does cause some to be treated as inhuman and this video also has bisexual visibility. Devin did amazing in this role and we kept it fun while breaking down societal barriers to human rights.”

How Can I

How Can I call you my lover Sage Suede

How Can I is A Song About Millennial Dating

Nowadays, most people meet through dating apps and it is great to meet someone worthwhile, but oftentimes they are already talking to other people before they even meet you. So it’s optimistic to even expect dating to go anywhere when you meet someone from an app.

Why is it Optimistic?

Unfortunately, dating apps make everyone a commodity. No matter how attractive you are, it just takes a few more swipes to meet someone else.

Tip: Try To Ask Your Date About Their Dating Life

If you talk with someone and they are an honest person, they should tell you where you stand. They should also give you an idea of whether or not they are seeing multiple people, or have already met someone before you. It can feel deceptive when someone is dating others, but keep in mind that you may not be at the exclusive phase yet. They could also be polyamorous and if that’s the case, then you need to be okay with it for your relationship to work. I have had people break up with me because I’m not polyamorous and that doesn’t offend me. They just wanted something that I couldn’t give them. This song isn’t really that relevant to polyamory, unless you are speaking in terms of someone that isn’t ready to date you at all.

Modern Dating Sometimes Has a Longer Dating Phase

I have met couples that were married after one or two weeks of dating. They are a bit older than me, so I presume that it is a generational difference, however that can also be the case when you meet someone that is just right for you. However, with all of these apps and fewer societal obligations to get married, many people of younger generations are waiting longer to get married. As a result, the dating phase can last much longer than expected.

You won’t get to be exclusive with people as quickly as in the past. It’s also not nearly as easy, when they can search for others on the internet and that is the premise of this song.

How can you even call someone a lover, if they are unwilling to settle down with you?

That question is much longer than How Can I, which also evokes a lack of the ability to put this meaning into words.

It’s Hard to Find Consistency in Your Teens and Early Twenties

However, as many people get older, there is more desire to settle down. It’s nothing to get worked up about, because it won’t get you anywhere. Most people don’t know what they want at a young age and they can’t even identify what they need in a partner. Just be clear with your partner when you would like to be exclusive and don’t try to change who they are.

dating advice sage suede

Sometimes, you can get someone to be exclusive with you rather quickly, but usually it takes at least a few dates and several weeks. Since I’m talking about this concept, I would also like to mention that you don’t want to tell someone you love them too early on, because it makes you seem desperate. Sometimes this can be have poor consequences, early in a relationship.

You really can’t put a time frame on when it’s okay to say “I love you,” but if I ventured a wild guess I would say 3 months. You really need to read your partner’s body language though and if you feel that close to them, they may be in a similar place.

Musical Composition of How Can I

This song is written with an alternative rock feeling to it. It is most similar in style to Cleopatra on DIAMONDBACK Demo. It also features a drum machine and electric guitar. I would like to get a higher quality guitar pedal in the future, so the distortion is a little more clear. This was another step in the right direction for me, as the songwriting process taught me more about rock vocals and what I want to sound like.

How Can I lyrics by Sage Suede


I was looking at the moon
la lune
and she says be there soon
shut in like a coccoon
butterfly
too dark to go and fly
rubberneck dirt road
killing my flow
not sure
how to cope
when it’s just picking up a fight
a girl just like any other

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

I was walking down the street
you’d speak
beautiful words muttered
under your breath
confess to me
through my window shutters
seen so many details of so many females
like to hear her tale
read her like an email
must be like a single light
a spark that struck me just right

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

farewell
but you cast your spell
I wanted to see it through
you rang the bell
and my pride fell
I’ll come crawling
back to you
warm fuzzy full it’s like
orange fills my soul
this light
could keep me there
could make me stare
into your eyes
and kiss you tonight

How can I call you my lover
when we still want another
hand and hand but wondering
why do we even bother
perfect is a dirty word
don’t think I have ever heard
a single lie just quite as dry
but loving you feels just right

Thanks for visiting my site! Photos for this post are by Adam Perri and  you can find more on my modeling portfolio.
I am now located in Austin, TX and available for modeling opportunities.

Demons Want Cash Flow

An Understatement: I Was Not Happy When I Wrote This

There are a lot of 7s in today’s date so what better time to talk about this song. If you read the lyrics or listen to this song at all, then you would know that it has nothing to do with demonology, or the study of demons. If anything, it’s about demons within others trying to oppress your spirit and possibly, even intending to physically destroy you.

Around the time I wrote this song, I met some people that tried to ruin my life. In a nutshell, they tried to destroy everything about me. I don’t plan to perform this song, but I included it on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so that people would know that I was coming from a breaking point. I had to overcome these demonic people and luckily, I won, or I would essentially be dead right now.

I Still Feel Shy & Depressed

I struggled with a lot of depression and anxiety during the past few years. I’m still shy, so it’s taken a lot of practice for me to branch out and become a performer. I am only a bit extroverted to begin with and I’m skilled at marketing and social media, but I don’t crave attention in social settings.

I used to be so shy that I would choke anytime I auditioned for a theatrical role, or did a clarinet competition. I’ve been doing different kinds of performances throughout my life that have led me to be more confident and outgoing, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have struggled with depression. Most of my poetry from my younger years is too sad to share, as were most of my songs when I started sharing music online. You’ll definitely see that in the first few posts on this site. You can also find some of this poetry on SageSuede.Tumblr.com.

Overcoming Difficulties Makes You Stronger

I felt like it was important to share this song on DIAMONDBACK demo, because it shows a little more about negative experiences that helped to shape me into the person I am today. I don’t want to align myself with these feelings, which is why I don’t plan to perform this song (unless people really like it, it has a few likes on soundcloud). These feelings are still a part of who I am, but I actively choose to be happy because it’s better for me. I am trying my best to keep my aura clear and to focus on positive materialization.

Others Will Try to Drag You Down

I want my fans to hear this song, because I have encountered a lot of people in my life that make the self-centered assumption that I am overly-confident, or that I “need to be more grounded in reality.” Some of them will attack us just for acting happy, because they think that our happiness is a sign that we don’t feel sad. That couldn’t be further from the truth. I act happy for the people around me, not for myself. I project happiness outward, so that I will receive it in return. It has nothing to do with how I feel.

Some People Try to Tell Me That I’m “Not Even a Musician, or a Model”

They want to discourage me and tell me that my pursuits in music are futile, by comparing me to the most popular musicians and models in all of human history… That scale is absurd and it’s sad how some people act when they get the internet in front of them. I am a musician and a model, because I have the proof online. It’s what I do, not what they say and I am mostly talking about this now for the benefit of y’all – the readers. Don’t take it to heart if people say that you aren’t successful based on some absurd large scale person that is one of the most famous people of all time. That’s comical, if anything and it doesn’t make any sense.

About The Song Demons Want Cash Flow

This song is not about businessman. I am technically a businessman by profession, so I obviously don’t want to demonize everyone with a cash flow statement lol. I am still an artist in my free time and I am working towards making this my only job.

One Vocal, Acoustic Take

I recorded this song in one take and I didn’t do much editing at all, except for EQ. It is more conceptual, than professionally made and is about my feelings at the time. It is neither reflective of my overall abilities to make audio edits, nor my vocal talent; I didn’t use any comping, which is the industry standard nowadays. Comping is when you take the best vocal clips from various takes and put it together to make the highest possible quality vocal track. I did almost no comping at all on DIAMONDBACK Demo, so my takes are better than people would assume.

This Song Features Many Lyrics About My Inner Struggles

You could call them personal demons as well, but many of these inner struggles were forced upon me by others. I have grown to overcome them, in ways that I never expected and I am thankful to have made it through this very difficult period in my life.

There is a lyric about “my dying drones.” It is in terms of the fact that we are always getting closer to death and most all entertainment industries are youth-centric; that means that it is harder and harder to simply be a part of music or modeling as I age, even though these are things I love to do. I’m not going to give up, just because mediocre young artists will get more attention, simply based on their ability to pull young kids into their fan-base. I’ve been through too much to let others affect the outcome of my life and I am doing this all independently, so it’s up to me to make it happen. None of this would exist right now if I hadn’t worked for it throughout my entire life and it will continue growing, because I won’t give up.

If You Work Hard, You Will Succeed.

No one can tell you that you aren’t capable of something, when you are doing it. Believe in the things that you work hard at, because they are things that you have already achieved. People can try to talk you down, but words can only have so much influence. If you keep working, you will get to where you are going and there’s no reason to ever feel bad because there are people that are more famous than you. It’s sad that artists are constantly being pitted against each other like it’s some kind of Roman circus.

Why is Sage Suede Not More Famous?

I have a lot of student debt. I’m not a trust fund baby that can just buy everything they want. I had to work hard to get into a good college on several scholarships and I got jobs directly out of college through 2 internships and 2 co-ops that I completed during classes.

I wrote DIAMONDBACK Demo While Studying and/or Working Full-Time.

I don’t regret my decision to get an education, because otherwise everything would have fallen apart. I needed to have money to be capable of doing anything and as much as I would love to make Sage Suede my entire life, I had to prioritize the cold hard reality that I need money to survive. I am getting closer to my goals, but since I can’t afford to pay other people to make my dreams a reality, I am still trucking forward on my own. I am very happy for all of my collaborators however. For more collaboratons, check out my videos!

 

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Silly #Halloweencostume

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On a random note, I was the Devil last Halloween, because my friend had a free costume in their attic. If you make up any conspiracy theories about that I will laugh, because I just told you why I wore it. I didn’t have any money for a costume at the time and it was just for fun, not to summon some kind of entity.

Sage Suede – The Demons Want Cash Flow


my name
is not fool again
my heart
is not torn apart
my hands
are not slippery
but you can pass smooth
through my fingers

years of clingers
and the social feelers
and the club rat climb
not getting higher
I feel so tired
lost all desire
and some has been wants
to shout until I’m breathless soft

I’m green
suede leather delighter
I’ll make
a light bastion
or it all comes
crashing down

I don’t need the sound
of meddlers in my
dying drones
I’ll wait
until the cake comes to me

I wilt
under the flickering
pires of ire
I’ll fake
that I’m so bougee
but my money is like loose leaf

sometimes I wish
I wasn’t weird
but I won’t disappear

I know
I’m not slow
although the demons want cash flow

their business is built on my pain anyway

I’m happier
when I can think
I won’t let you make me weak

You may have a toxic ploy
but you can’t
use me like a toy

I’ll turn the tide
I’ll strike you down…
into the ground


Let me know what you think in the comments and I’ll create more soon!

Scum of Yesterday

I Was Pretty Angry When I Wrote This

This song is about being independent of anger that has come about from negativity. We all have things that happen in our lives that we have to deal with and this song is oriented with dismissing that negativity. I use the word scum, because it’s something on the hull of a ship that just gets scraped off. Sort of like how you shrug your shoulders, or you dust off the haters – it’s the same idea behind the terminology.

Lessons Learned From This Song

I write a lot of poetry when I feel emotional and so many of the tracks on my demo started out this way. I didn’t realize until after the fact that these emotions don’t necessarily pan out that well for the listener. I used to desire independence from other people’s constructs of me so much, that I didn’t take any real consideration for the listener. This song isn’t too overpowering in terms of the emotions, because it’s written to sound pretty happy regardless. When I say “let it lay with the scum of yesterday,” that’s the same as just letting things go. It should help to overcome anger with a situation, should you choose to repeat the words.

Why Were You So Angry?

I first wrote this track about a coworker that stole my work and then said awful things about me to HR. She had her friend come in and bully me, even though they had nothing to go off of. It was blatant stealing and then she wanted to just slap her work on an article of more than 500 words that I wrote entirely by myself. She didn’t even write any of it, she was purely the editor and she wanted to credit herself because it was about PR. It was really messed up and she went on being giggly and selfish afterwards, with absolutely no recognition of what she had done. After I wrote this song, it really helped me to dismiss those feelings and I’m happy with the way this song turned out. At least I made something good out of that mess of an ordeal.

A Little About Hoodoo and Magic

This video was made independently be me. I know it’s kind of creepy, but that was sort of the point and I made it in the middle of the night.

There is a hoodoo ritual where you break an egg at a crossroads and then you walk away. I broke the egg in this video and sped up the frame rate during the walk over there. This isn’t any kind of curse and you do this when you want to dismiss negativity. Usually before doing so you give the egg your bad energy and it is to deflect negativity (or curses) that are directed at you. At the end of the video, I’m just kind of waving around thorns. Thorns are also consider to be symbolic of protection and they can be laid over doorways or windowsills to keep out negative energy. There is also an owl in the video, which is protective too and fits nicely with the other imagery.

I tagged this post as magic, because of it’s associations with these concepts. I do not advocate any form of cursing, because it will usually come back to you in full force. People have a bad tendency to label and judge others in a way that can often be negative and this is energy that eventually travels back to you. I am aware of dark magic, but primarily so that I can protect myself. If you’ve read what some people say about the music industry online, you will understand why there is a need to be concerned. In this video, it is conceptual and there’s no need to read into it in too much depth. I think that this concept was a little too spooky for most people, but it was a fun FOIL (literary term) to the positive energy of the song.

Scum of Yesterday by Sage Suede


I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels
but I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed no
when you get pestilent
you can curse and scoff
but you won’t look so soft
reality will hit you harsher

You can berate
go and manipulate
but I won’t take part
in your
deceptive arts

Hey, no way
it’s not right to hate so clueless
let you know now
better to make a dream
than bring to ruin

I will let it lay
with the scum of yesterday
I don’t feel distressed
when you get pestilent
I may lack the jewels but
I’m not your stupid tool
When we all look North
the lies are shattered

No one listens to
your hate chatter
your anti-matter

I hope you like this song! Your support means a lot to me.

New Recordings for DIAMONDBACK

Making Lots of Progress on DIAMONDBACK Demo

I’m starting to get a good track-list going and I expect to get DIAMONDBACK Demo out soon. There was recently a full moon in Leo this past weekend and I couldn’t agree more that I am in a better position to work towards my goals and assert myself, although I tend to be a bit shy. I read about astrology sometimes, although the most useful is probably current astronomical events and I may mention them in the blog, because it’s interesting to me.

Sage Suede is Inclusive of Diversity

I think it’s important that I establish the kind of person I am, because I want Sage Suede to be an inclusive musical act. Even when people have prejudices, I want them to understand that acceptance of diversity is a necessity at my concerts. I want to stand up for what’s right, whenever I see prejudice at my concerts and I hope that my fans will do so as well.

Maybe, Sometimes it’s a bit off-putting

I try to speak out and support progress within society. Usually I talk about this kind of thing on Twitter and honestly, in many ways this has been to my own detriment. I have lost fans while supporting various positive things within society, but I don’t regret that. I am not a politician, so I might not mention everything that it on my mind, but I still want my presence to make the world a better place. Although I try to speak out, I also don’t want to make myself a target, so if you ever see me remove something in retrospect, that’s probably why.

Just a Little Sage Magic

I also believe in magic. I guess that may be weird to a lot of people, but a good way to explain it to non-believers is in terms of that book The Secret. Basically, the book says that what you put out into the world is what you ultimately receive; that is essentially the same thing as pretty much every magical practice and religion (i.e. prayer). I research a lot of different spiritual belief systems and practices, because I find that stuff very interesting. As a result, you will also hear me mentioning magic and magic concepts within my songs. You don’t have to believe in any of it and I’m not starting a cult. I might make more videos about magical practices, but that doesn’t mean that I advocate for it either. Personally, I have seen how much magic impacts my life and I don’t have any doubt in my mind. I don’t really care what other people think about that, it’s just something that I probably won’t stop mentioning in my work.

Happy Valentinesday! I’m spending it alone with myself. #metime #selflove

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Songs Re-visited

So I returned to my alma mater, Northeastern University, recently for this recording session and recorded a few tracks. One of my friends reserved the studio for me, so that I could do so, even though I was an alumni – Thanks Jon! I am attaching these two songs to this post because it’s Valentinesday and I want some of the more romantic songs to be out there while all of us single people eat chocolate and maybe cry. If you have someone to lick your toes (for lack of a more interesting semi-erotic metaphor), then that’s great and I hope you enjoy your day too!

Sexy in That Sweater


You can also find the original here, but this version is better imo. It’s about a friend that used to wear sweaters all the time and we were always thrifting for sweaters. I kept thrifting for sweaters afterwards, because we were really close and she taught me about how great the tactile aspect of sweaters are. We were best friends for a long time and I miss that. You can learn more about this song here.

Lazy Sunday with You


You can find the video version of this song here. I didn’t have an audio version of this before, so I’m releasing one now. I mention auras in the song: supposedly babies, young kids, many animals and gurus can see them easily. It doesn’t come too easily to me, as I’ve always had an easier time feeling than seeing things. I’m not particularly oriented towards psychic vision. There’s even a wikihow article on it, if it interests you.

Anyways, I will try not to cause a hullabaloo by talking about magic too much. It is just a common subject of study for me and an influence that definitely plays a role in my songwriting. I’m trying to finish up DIAMONDBACK Demo soon and I hope that you’ll like it. It’s been a lifetime of hard work and experience that’s finally starting to come to fruition.

O Pirata Digital

I wanted to write a song about pirates

…because I have a costume from Halloween a few years ago. I already came up with a cool video concept for this and am speaking with friends to try and find two cast members and a video person. I still have this concept in my head now, but unfortunately, I can’t materialize it as easily as I would have liked to.

I Don’t Advocate Breaking The Law

This was mostly written for my fans in Angola & Mozambique, who are the majority of my Facebook fans. I am not in any way advocating piracy in this song- it is just an interesting concept within a song, as well as an important historical occurrence. Within the context of a more European or American mindset, it makes more sense to discuss pirates in terms of digital piracy, thus the name.

When I said “bebendo na rua”, I was thinking about when I used to go to street festivals in Brazil. I learned Portuguese at Northeastern University and also took a class in Belo Horizonte. I became fluent during my brief time in Brazil, where I met a lot of great people there and I really miss it. I am more than happy to have followers in other Portuguese-speaking countries as well, because I have heard some bands from there and they have cool stuff.

I Didn’t Write This Song With a Lame Filter

This song isn’t particularly offensive to anyone, but it also wasn’t written with a filter. I didn’t even stick to one language really. It was mostly written in Portuguese and eventually, I created a version that was fully in English. The Digital Pirate (the English version) is on DIAMONDBACK Demo and it is one of my favorite tracks from the piece. It is mostly about having fun and although it is titled digital pirate, it doesn’t have much of anything to do with digital piracy. Now that I think about it, this song is completely random and people must think I’m so weird. That doesn’t bother me, but I would like to make something that communicates better with people in the future. This song is composed of poetic musings in multiple languages.

Sage Suede – O Pirata Digital:

You can also find the English version of this song on soundcloud and the homepage of this site.

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

I love your little quirks
I’ll calm the babbling birds
I wanna see you slay
money each and every day

Still haven’t explained
I’ll be on the winning team
want to have me on your side
I’m already on your mind

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

O pirata digital
gosta da bixa barbada
bebendo na rua
enloquece pra a lua

Visita a praia
Douradas como os maias
Rebolando com sentido
Tem chique do funky Rio

Witches wanna give me riches
and the Bixas like my pictures
minhas fans entenderam
I have smooth and sultry rock

Gosta de vida verde
Sage Suede canta pra
ideais progressivas,
vida beleza, festival

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This Blog Post is NOT Art

A Little About Me

I was born during a record low snowstorm in Ohio. I don’t really remember living there, but I’ve seen photos. I was a Cesarean section because there was a risk of brain damage, if I jumped out wrong. I won’t go into all of that, but I had good timing. I was a big baby at 11 lbs 7 oz.
I went to a Catholic pre-school in Florida and there were cockroaches everywhere. I was later baptized and I have learned of many religions since then. I won’t go into the details but I enjoy reading about different belief systems. Later in my childhood, I moved to Texas where there were plagues of crickets. Luckily that ended in the early 2000s, because I was in swimming and it was disgusting. I had to do a few meets, swimming through pools of partially-live crickets.

I was that guy in elementary school that was taller than everyone else, so people always treated me like I was older. I’m like the big puppy dog that was always treated like an adult dog, so it didn’t grow up chihuahua. I also hated being a child, because I viciously prefer independence and still crave more freedom for my art. I did sports in elementary school but started band in middle school and I’ll get into that later…

If you want to know more about me you can always comment on any of my social media profiles, or posts on this site. I support people of all backgrounds and have always had best friends of both genders, from all over the world.

One of my best friends from middle school band striking a pose with me. She’s super successful now and I am so proud.
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Random Life Notes

I have to make music, because otherwise there is no way for people to understand me. I loved languages as a kid. You learn the most about English when you learn a foreign language because you can see commonalities in sentence structure that clarify elements of grammar that generally aren’t explained in native language learning (although, I probably ignored them while learning English).

I devoted years of my life to learning several languages. I was fortunate to be in a public high school with AP classes, but had to work hard to get into college. Much of high school was harder than college for me because I did so much. I had 32 semester hours when I started on a half-tuition scholarship and changed my major 3 times, before graduating in 4 years.

I plan ahead, otherwise I get anxious and I planned ahead to become a musician as a child. I made that decision because I liked foreign music and I wanted a career that would allow me to travel. My first two albums were Deee-Lite’s Greatest Hits and Music by Madonna (side note: I asked Lady Miss Kier to collab and she was too busy, but as a huge fan, I was happy to have a brief chat via email with her).  When I was like 6, I started on drums (don’t play anymore though), then Clarinet in middle school, marched bass clarinet and shredded at classical bass clarinet, followed by guitar, ukulele and piano. For a while, I practiced clarinet for 5 hours a day.

Oh, and in middle school I started learning to make beats but was off-an-on until recently. I have devoted years of my life to this and did several jobs for free to learn to marketing and other skills, such as web design. This website and my music really are the product of blood, sweat and tears – often at my own expense.

No One Else Defines Me

Some people treated me like I was crazy for being different from them, but I primarily grew up in Austin, TX – a place where most people embrace weirdness. I have friends from everywhere and have had trouble fitting in for most of my life, because I am from many places and like foreign things. I don’t always think in one language and I want to make that painfully clear, because I don’t always speak in the same accent. You might find me using a different voice on different songs, but I am always trying to express myself genuinely.

I don’t think that’s weird at all and I don’t feel like I should have to justify it to anyone. I also don’t feel like my music should be limited to one mood, because I’m human and have emotions. I am a multi-dimensional person, as I have expressed in other posts, so I won’t let anyone look down on me on the basis of how different we are. I am a good role model, because I worked so hard to get where I’m at.

I’ve always had friends from diverse cultures and I used to practice Clarinet 5 hours a day, in addition to rehearsals. That number dropped of course, but I wanted to be a Clarinet major through much of high school. I chose to drop clarinet for guitar and piano, which I studied at Clancy’s Guitar School.

NOT Art

This post is not art because it’s just about me. I’m a person and it’s about time people realize that I’m not an object. I don’t want my childhood really to be the body of any of my art, but it still influences me a lot. I live in a pretty quiet apartment complex with a roommate, so with a 40-hour work week, I don’t have many hours to be loud. That’s one of the reasons a lot of my stuff has been electronic lately. Unfortunately, one of the main reasons I was so sad in earlier posts is because living with roommates so greatly limited my capacity for musical expression and some of those roommates were awful enough to attack me for practicing.

A lot of my songs are meant to provoke discussion, but others are just personal and reflective. I like keeping those reflective pieces on here and I don’t feel bad about anything that I’ve ever made, even when it isn’t high quality. I haven’t been performing my original music much and none of these songs are guaranteed to be final versions.Unfortunately, I am limited by financial resources and my student debt is spiraling out of control, so things are still up in the air, until I can make ends meet.

I’ve been living my life to become a musician and I made all of these plans and took these steps myself, one at a time down a very long path. I also took all of the steps towards a professional career and have to dedicate my time to making money, before working on this blog. Sage Suede would not exist right now, if I hadn’t worked for it and taken on a lot of roles to get here.


My Facebook page mostly has followers in Lusophone countries, so I am going to keep making Portuguese songs too.
I am very thankful for the love I receive in regards to my music. I want my fans to know how to handle tough situations, so I try to be edgy but it’s also just been my entire life adapting to new friendships and situations. I am enjoying the experience and progressing outside of music as well. 😉

Gonna Miss These Kids

About The Song – Gonna Miss These Kids by Sage Suede

This song is about my childhood, specifically what high school parties were like. I don’t go into much detail, but I had a lot of cool friends and this song is me reminiscing. At the end of the song I talk about history. The first party my friends and I organized, we were writing hundreds of flashcards for AP U.S. History, then we decided to throw a party. I still have a lot of love for the people I know back home (including other friends outside of this group of friends) and I still keep in contact with many of them. We have the kind of friendships where if we don’t talk, then things are still pretty much the same the next time we hangout.

Basically, We Were Cool Nerds

It’s funny because the group of friends I partied with the most were all really smart. We all worked really hard, were in advanced, college-level classes and participated in after school activities. None of us really cared about popular kids; Like they were okay, we weren’t mean to them or anything, but they were just shallow and not very interesting. We never cared about being popular because we were already cool on our own time. You could maybe say that we were living double lives, working hard and staying on top of things during the day, but at night, we’d have these awesome house parties that no one ever knew about. So I wrote this song to commemorate our great times.

I can’t speak for all my friends but overall we were just happy to spend time with each other and it had nothing to do with what other people thought about us. I guess that’s why we had so much fun and became so close in the process. We still hangout sometimes, just not as often as we used to. I’ve moved a few times, so I have actually been the most distant.

I Grew Up In Austin, Texas and It Is Pretty Cool

I just wanted to share a little bit about this one hidden aspect of what high school was like for me. I was always busy and worked really hard, but I played hard with my friends and that’s what this song is about. A lot of people party hard in Texas and honestly, it’s one of the coolest states regardless of all the pathetic stereotypes that make us sound like were in the 1800s riding horses to class, lol. I am thinking about making a video with them next time we are able to get together again, but who knows. I tried to direct a movie with a script I wrote once, but no one felt like putting in effort.

Lessons Learned From Partying Too Hard

Sometimes we did drink way too much. We were always there for each other though and did our best to keep everyone safe. When you invite new people over to parties, they are wild cards so you have to be sure they won’t do something crazy or reckless too.

I had a high GPA but I was wait-listed at Princeton. I think it’s mostly because I knew next to nothing about the school and the only thing I asked about during the interview was eating clubs, but it could have also been related to small moments that I didn’t work hard, because I was out drinking. I don’t actually care at all, but sometimes I wonder if I would have had more opportunities, if I had studied just a little bit harder. I was at the top of my class, so it wouldn’t have been that much more effort.

I Didn’t Want This To Be A Pop Song

My music is personal, although I share it with others and I am more introspective than this song about partying would have you believe. I have a lot more to offer than just a party anthem and that’s why this is not written in a conventional pop style. I want to make my fans more successful by discussing things of substance, because in turn they can help me out. That’s probably why I started a magic series on YouTube a few years later, but I’m re-evaluating if that is actually helping me to reach my goals.

Sage Suede – Gonna Miss These Kids


Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time
——
If we ever wrote a book
It would be off the hook
It would sell off the shelves
Cause we partied next level

Skinny dipping
Bar tending
Smoke building
Texas shit
Not those other states
wishing that they could handle it

High school
The Party nights
I’m just being forthright
We were nerds, we did fine
Yet we went hard
double lives

Never turned down
Another round
Girls were going
Pound for pound
Chillin with my favorite crew
We didn’t need to prove our cool
——
Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still have our tricks
And fancy hits
Still looking fly
Still talking shit
But we’re alright
And there’s no catch

Gonna miss these kids
Gonna miss our kicks
Still looking fit
And taking tips
Still staying late
On Saturdays
But we need mint
And that’s the clinch

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We’ll keep on living
Until there’s a sequel
I like to blend heartache
With vodka and jello
But we’re all still mellow
Barely time for a hello

Life is like a movie
And we had a sweet prequel
We have great stories
Of parties, chill people
You helped to save me
From the hard work daily
So many great nights
Barely had enough time

New Years was always huge
Always had a big crew
House parties ’til numb
Pool and a hot tub

Started with history
We wrote flash cards all day
Had a house to get drunk
dedicate then go hard

I still reminisce
no regrets

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I had really low self esteem until the end of high school and was really nerdy in middle school. People liked me for being genuine and for treating them respectfully. It was never about being the prettiest, or a jock, or whatever, although, it’s cool to have fun past times like that too, if that’s your thing. You don’t need to party either, that’s just what we did. In the end, what was most valuable was what we learned and the memories we still share.

Meet Sage and Musical Challenges

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Never Give Up on a Challenge.

So many of us have grown accustomed to being catered to by businesses and expect to get things handed to us by a consumerist society (especially in the USA).

Personally, I have had problems in the past with giving up on difficult projects due to their complexity and my level of inexperience. This applies to Sage Suede, as well as a lot of other things, like when I took pre-AP physics in high school. Just because something is hard and you don’t know how to do it, doesn’t mean that it is unattainable. You will achieve so much more by working towards that goal, even if you never get there.

If you really want something and you want it badly enough, you’ll find a way to make it happen.

We are forced to do difficult tasks at school and during work, but most of us don’t want to get off the couch as soon as we get home. This is due to exhaustion as much as laziness, but that doesn’t mean we can’t make small steps on a long journey. Most of the things that are worth doing in life are hard to do.

There’s no reason that we can’t achieve the big things we want to do, in addition to the ones we’re forced to do. You’ve already proven yourself throughout your life with all the tasks you had to do, so why not apply yourself to a challenge that you really love?

I Started This Blog in May 2015

I created this blog to work towards a lifelong passion of mine. I started learning to read music and play instruments as a child and have wanted to be a musician for most of my life. Now, I am content as a Digital Marketing Associate but still feel that music is an important part of my life and continue to pursue it as a way to express myself. I have learned marketing, social media management, basic web design, audio editing, and even some video editing in pursuit of this goal. I’m still working all the time towards making my dreams a reality.

Little Baby Steps

Sage Suede, just like any large goal consists of a series of small steps, spaced out over time and still requires me to work through challenges in order to make my increasingly larger vision into a reality. Below is an interview conducted by my friend and former co-worker, Nam Namm. He is a professional in marketing and enjoys doing video production in his spare time. You can find more of his work on his YouTube channel. I am really awkward, but I feel like it is an accurate depiction of me and many of my friends will recognize my demeanor. This is one of the first interviews I’ve ever done for my music and I’m glad to be moving in a positive direction.

I’m still working on tracks and the live recording from Fort Point Open Mic Night will be up next week. Thanks for visiting!

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Gays in Space with Bass

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If it isn’t acceptable in the workplace, it shouldn’t be acceptable in our government.

I wrote this post originally because I was inspired by a congressional speech. Regardless of intention, it is delimiting to tell gay people they can’t do something, even if it is something that applies to so few, as colonizing space. This kind of speech creates divisiveness in American society. This divisiveness is a political tool meant to keep us from aligning on collective societal needs, in favor of elitism.

You are most likely a victim of ignorant speech in your life, because everyone has their own views and opinions. We are limited to our experience and inexperience in any given area (such as lifestyle and sexuality) can lead to negative and often, misguided opinions. If you don’t have experience with something, you can express your feelings and opinions, but you have no place as a voice of authority that wastes taxpayer dollars and gains global recognition. Gay people don’t deserve to be delimited with their own taxes and as they have proven themselves to be highly successful in virtually every occupational field, there is no reason to exclude them from anything, such as space colonies.

Homosexuality is Normal. It is Not “Being Normalized.”

Another similar issue, not directly addressed in the speech is labeling homosexuality as unnatural. To say that homosexuality and non-binary gender is a form of mental illness is ignorant of all the love experienced in these relationships and the rights of trans people to do what they want and feel is right with their bodies.

The sheer notion that so-called alternative forms of sexuality are immoral is a bias created and perpetuated by heterosexuals. It is completely heterocentric and very often ignorant to even postulate an awareness, much less an understanding of a sexuality that is not your own. Oftentimes, these aren’t even personal views, they are views established by ideologies at a young age, when people have less capacity to doubt what they are being taught. I don’t have any issue with the idea of religion and I see its value in my life, as well as the lives of those around me, but hatred eats away at the soul and there isn’t a benefit to hating others for the way they love. Love isn’t hurting anyone.

In the political sphere, these feelings only cause harm to queer Americans and when they are expressed by the USA, there are implications for people within the LGBT+ community globally. Ignorant and judgmental people go on to repeat these ideas and it spirals throughout society, causing universal harm. There is no benefit to speaking this way and that is one of the main reasons I wrote this post, so that gay people know that they can be high achievers, regardless of hate speech. Many in the LGBTQIAPK community already are and there is no reason to believe the propaganda of elitists that want everyone but them to fail anyway. Divisiveness primarily exists within politics to marginalize everyone that isn’t a multimillionaire, regardless of race, gender, or sexual orientation.

Homosexuality Has Never Been a Mental Illness

In the middle ages, homosexuality was considered a form of mental illness and by association a form of demonic possession. In the words of Sigmund Freud, considered by many to be the father of modern psychology…

Homosexuality is assuredly no advantage, but it is nothing to be ashamed of, no vice, no degradation, it cannot be classified as an illness

It’s horrifying to treat non-heterosexual forms of sexuality as a mental illness, because it leads to the drugging, segregation of and extermination of voices in the LGBTQIAPK community. These people are just like anyone else and can come from any part of society and they only differ on the basis of their sexuality. They can have very positive impacts in their community and are pervasive in popular culture. It is tragic that anyone be delimited and destroyed because of who they are, when they have so much to offer the world.

No one really has the right to push their personal beliefs on someone else in the bedroom and it’s impossible to even try in the first place. Although I believe the speaker had good intentions, this kind of power play should have no place in modern American society. It isn’t uncommon for people to discriminate against sexualities that are not their own, but that doesn’t make it right. If anything, it’s sad and pathetic – it makes the person that passes such judgments look awful. It should never be an acceptable form of behavior in politics, because it serves no positive purpose in the world. I shouldn’t need to create alternative messaging, because anti-gay hate speech has no place in politics, after both a liberal and conservative presidency have upheld the rights of homosexuals in the workplace (at the time of the congressional speech, it was only liberal resolutions).

Anti-Gay Hate Speech in Public and Politics

I know that there are others that share his feelings and even in more liberal parts of the United States, such as Boston, anti-gay views are expressed openly. I have seen bigoted waiters speak with customers condescendingly about their disdain for gay marriage and people on the train that cannot accept that others around them are gay. Even if you only have appreciation for a heterosexual lifestyle, you are still hurting yourself by holding onto all of that anger. It will damage your friendships and will bring more toxic people into your life. There is no benefit to you either, when you say bad things about other people purely based on hetero-centric, self-centered & shallow notions that have no basis in reality.

In the modern world we live in, there is an incredible amount of diversity and not only is it rude to discriminate against those of other sexualities, you are creating negative interpretations of heterosexuals by not being accepting of others. Whether or not it’s acknowledged, you are a representative of your personal culture and you don’t want people to hate you based on who you are, so why would you try to impose that treatment on others? Do you think that you will be treated better or worse, as a result of spreading hatred? It’s not a good thing and it doesn’t make your life better. It certainly doesn’t make the world a better place.

You Can’t Stop Anybody From Being in Love

You will never be able to control what other people do in the privacy of their bedrooms and gay couples are going to be together regardless of the petty insecurities of others. Most “homophobes” – an awful term that phonetically gives anti-gay hate speech the excuse of being a phobia- are people with unresolved gay attraction themselves and it does not make you look more masculine to be a douche. No one likes a downer and not only is it counterproductive to your own personal development to negatively fixate on the behavior of others, you are creating more negativity for yourself by being critical of those that don’t value your opinion. No one thinks you are more man, when you sound insecure and spread hate about something you don’t understand.

I am glad that we have free speech in our society but it is time that we acknowledge the negative implications of hate rhetoric in our political system. People should know better than to assert their personal sexuality on others. No one has a position of sexual authority and if you believe that some kind of supreme being created the universe, then they clearly wouldn’t have created homosexuality by mistake.

Homosexuality in Nature – An Extremely Well-Documented Reality

Humans are not the only animals that have homosexual practices, so it’s about time people acknowledge it isn’t unnatural, or obscure behavior. The video below cites that as many as 1,500 species of animals engage in homosexual relations. Ironically, the formerly anti-gay Republican party has the elephant as their symbol, when Asian and African species are known for homosexuality. I’m glad that they are coming around, when their mascot has been gay for centuries in the wild!

Sodom and Gomorrah is About Rape, NOT Homosexual Love

When it comes to the Bible in politics, we’re bound to have different interpretations, but there’s nothing Christian about condemning people for who they are. In general, there’s nothing Christian about condemning anybody, thus the central paradigm of turning the other cheek. “Today, the standard of psychotherapy in the U.S. and Europe is gay affirmative psychotherapy, which encourages gay people to accept their sexual orientation.” In addition, homosexuality hasn’t been considered a mental illness since 1973, a decade known for inequality and later the breakdown of oppression through demonstrations (many influenced by the work of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr).

Just because the Bible depicts a man and a woman in the garden of Eden, doesn’t make that is the only consensual, or beneficial form of relationship in American society. In the tale of Sodom and Gomorrah (Genesis 19), the travelers are rapists demanding sex from unwilling men that live in the host’s dwelling. We know this because the host is not a pimp and he says: “don’t do anything to these men, for they have come under the protection of my roof.” It’s not consensual or representative of any form of non-heterosexual love when someone runs away from an attacker! I am baffled at how this has been used as a justification for unintelligible, anti-gay propaganda for centuries when it is so mind-numbingly obvious that that men in this story are running away from rapists.


Rape is rape, regardless of the genders involved and it’s time to stop grossly mis-associating and misinterpreting this passage with homosexual love. Gay relationships would not exist, if all queer folk did was rape each other. Rape is not a form of sexuality.

Misplaced hate against the LGBTQIAPK community that is justified as any form of sexual experience that doesn’t breed a child is not only illogical, but hurtful to those that will then be bullied and mistreated by others in their communities. It cannot be justified by Sodom and Gomorrah by any logical stretch of the imagination. You may disagree, but then you’d also have to answer as to why homosexuality exists so prominently in nature. Ultimately, all of this hate is unjustified and a huge waste of time for people, when they could instead be focusing on their own personal development and releasing anger that only destroys the body internally. Hatred doesn’t have any benefit to anyone.

What I used to think:

It’s stupid and pointless to talk about gay exclusion from space colonies, because we aren’t even colonizing space yet. The closest thing the general public is aware of is inhabitants of the international space station and space exploration.

However, we live in the future:

When I first looked into this congressional speech, I did not know anything about space programs or exopolitics. Since then I have read a lot more and follow several blogs online that claim to speak about secret space programs (SSPs). I take this all with a grain of salt, but still.

I will not pretend to be versed in these matters, but I have learned much more about our origins. I am not the only one, but am simultaneously nowhere near a fringe of society. I am just independent in my beliefs and capable of vetting them through independent research. I mention this now, as I did not think we were colonizing space, but even South Park talks about going to Mars now, so it’s clearly happening. I actually think I read an article about sending people to Venus recently too.

I still believe that gay people are capable of anything and they are high achievers in societies all over the world. For this reason, I don’t see any excuse to keep them from colonizing space. Sexuality may be labeled as one way, but it has always been a spectrum.  There is no reason to demonize homosexuals, because the story of Soddom and Gomorah is about rapists. We should be doing something about sexual slavery, but instead homosexuality is demonized, in order to take the discussion away from real societal problems. If we spent less time hating each other, we would get more done for ourselves and groups that use hate speech as a tactic to prevent progress, wouldn’t be able to do so anymore.

I just hope the gov will realize that people are waking up and if we don’t stay ahead, we will ultimately fall behind. That includes promoting equality so we can spend more time on issues that actually matter.

Sage Suede – Gays in Space


Gays in space
Gays in space
They’ll save the human race
Not second tier
Not breeding fear
Profiting off of hate x2

Love is love
It’s not a front
Still not a stunt
For you to judge
You’re a pervert if you rant
to people how to lay in bed

What is wrong with government
Not fixing what is broken
We need a revolution now
Rich rabble-rousing congress

Gays in space
Gays in space
They’ll save the human race
Not second tier
Not breeding fear
Profiting off of hate x2

The vote is gone
We’re counting wrong
The system’s flawed and not us
We have the tech, no horsemen left
Why electoral college
The money talks
No word for us
The mic was dropped on progress
Why talk about our problems now
When caviar is thoughtless

It’s in the animal kingdom
In bed, there’s still freedom
See it with the kiwis, penguins
I’ve even met gay dogs

Devoted to dumb. It’s not about love; it’s not about gay people at all.
It’s about divided we fall and dividing us when there’s no divide at all.

Only things’s unnatural is being so judgmental
Elephants are gay too, awkward it’s your symbol

How about we actually discuss something real. Not just hate appeals: wasting our time & our taxes.
justifying hate with a rape tale, be real.

Gays in space
Gays in space
They’ll save the human race
Not second tier
Not breeding fear
Profiting off of hate x2

Tell me where the rainbow lies
The gold is where we bridge the lines
Together we have much more
We need democracy, not war

Let’s break down the mindless
The web shows we are righteous

I pity the dividers
Can’t live beyond the blinders

Let freedom ring equal
and count the votes of the people


I hope this post has helped to open your perspective in some way. I was even surprised by some of my research!
Do whatever feels right for you, but it’s generally better to accept that people will do what they want with their bodies. We can’t affect what happens behind closed doors anyway, so there’s no reason to be butthurt about it.

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